cubedemon6073 wrote:
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LOL! Yes, I'm not cis-gendered. About 25% of the time, I consider myself a male and my outside body doesn't match. I simply wanted to emphasize that biological females can do this even though we were born that way. I was told during my childhood I couldn't because I was a girl.
I've gotten used to saying "biological", because I'm not always female on the inside. I guess I should consider when I'm using that term. It's just kind of automatic for me to say that now.
Pardon my ignorance and pardon my rudeness if I come across that way. This is where I do not understand the transgender community and transgender thinking. If I offend you, please accept my apology but I'm trying to understand. This concept has always been difficult to wrap my mind around. You were born a biological female but you feel like you are a male 25% of the time. How can one feel like one is of the opposite gender if one has the components of one gender? What do you mean you consider yourself a male 25% of the time. I don't understand.
Let's say I have a cup of tea. It's like believing that I am drinking soda and it tastes like soda but I'm actually drinking and tasting tea but denying that I'm drinking and tasting tea. HELP!! I'm confused.
I understand your confusion. I'm pretty sure it has it's origins in the brain. I get this feeling of disgust, but it's more than that. About 25% of my life, I have felt that my female body parts are not supposed to be there, and that I was meant to have the opposite. It's not that I'm denying I was born a female, it's that my brain does not accept my female body parts.
It's actually more of a sensation. I even find it hard to explain. I suppose it's a kind of dysphoria. Also, it's not a conscious thought. It's not an active choice (like, hey, I don't want to be female). That's why I consider it more of a feeling.
Well, even if it was a choice, I don't think that's bad. But yes, it only happens about 25% of the time. So, 25% of my life I am disgusted with my body and wish I was a male. I will start doing things to "blend in" with other males. In other words, I will do stereotypically male things and dress how society says a male should dress in order to tell the world how I feel on the inside.
Technically, I suppose I would be labeled transgendered. However, I don't want surgery or anything because I only have this feeling about 25% of the time. I consider myself "gender queer". A lot of people would describe it as: Sex is what you are born as, gender is what your brain is.
I completely understand how someone who is logical would find this confusing unless you felt it. Believe me, it's hard for me to put into words. All I know is that I was like this since I was a child.
07 May 2014, 2:06 pm
