I think I understand

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So while I was reading I think that I may have had an epiphany.
People who have OCD channel their compulsions through different means but I perform my daily ritual of OCD which my psychiatrist says is healthy. Could it be my praying to God and giving him my problems us my own way of channeling my emotions or my lack of emotion? My friends have told me that I am disturbed because I talk to myself but that's the only way that I can function in my daily life. If I don't perform this ritual every day then I get very anxious, uncomfortable, and I start to get upset. I have yet to learn more about SPD since it's an uncommon disorder but I feel that maybe therapy is not something that is necessary because why should I change the way I am just to seem a little more human to others?
I haven't gone to therapy because of a recent surgery but I'm skeptical about going back anyway. My mother urges me to go back because she feels that a healthy life involves being able to have a job and converse with people. I don't like the me in those thoughts though, I like the me that I am.
Everyone wants me to be so many different things but I can't. ...explain how my brain works.

Strictly speaking many disorders in the DSM include the "religious exemption" anyway. If a behavior does not cause you discomfort and is acceptable to your immediate subculture (ie causes no trouble with the people you encounter in your immediate, daily life - such as happens in close-knit religious communities), it no longer qualifies as a disorder.