Conflicted About Holidays

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I sit here and I think about how it’s Thanksgiving and before it got here, maybe I had hoped that a strange and out-of-the-ordinary enthusiasm might strike me. But….it hasn’t. It’s like, that’s what I’m always waiting for. I sit here and think about the Native Americans and what happened to them and what is still happening all over the the world and again, another year where I just don’t care about this holiday. Or Christmas.

But I don’t want my family to think that I don’t love them by not participating. Even though I’m quiet most of the time at gatherings and feel awkward. I don’t want them to feel like I don’t care, even though...I don’t. I don’t agree with society and the way it is. I don’t agree with the pressure that goes along with holidays. Or how you are seen strangely or people feel sorry for you when you say you don’t care about Christmas. Like, you don’t like Christmas so there must be A HUGE GAPING VOID WITHIN YOU THAT MUST BE HEALED! MWAH!

Yeah, holidays...I wish I still got excited about them. But I don’t. Not even Halloween, really. Nothing. I get more excited about a full moon than I do about a “holiday”.

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I think you have a good point, OP. You sound like an independent thinker and we need more of them! I too get upset reading about the events of the frontier in the 29th Century in Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee by Dee Brown - never finished reading it actually as it's heavy going. I'm not American, by the way.

Yeah, people sure can make a fuss about a particular day or days, but the best is just to respect their wish to celebrate and just spend a short time with them but not overdo it. I agree that society leaves a lot to be desired. Luckily it's more open than was the case when I was growing up when women were totally dominated by men and wore hats to church and even took their husband's initials as their own as well as the surname. (e g Mr and Mrs G J Brown...)

Actually, Seasonal Affective Disorder is finally being recognized/diagnosed as being quite common.

Not just among Autistics/Aspergians.

I finally recognized it myself years ago, when I still tried to celebrate the holidays.....now I ignore them as much as possible.