Would I feel less lonely in prison?

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I am, and have been, faced with an eternity of solitude... already spent seven years alone, with only seven months in the company of anyone else. And, I honestly don't know if any kind of environment with some kind of people - except for places where torture is used, of course - would necessarily be worse than being forever alone. Right now it's like I'm dead, at least people in prisons are alive... barely, but there is some difference. And, I feel like I'm already confined, anyway... on average I go outside about once a month. And, as long as I can listen to the radio... it's all I currently do. There would barely be any difference, except the possibility that I could chat with someone for a bit...

Prison can be a very difficult and dangerous place. You might be surrounded by predatory people. Is that better than being alone?

Are there any resources you can use to meet people? Community centers, elective college classes, churches, meetup.com, etc?

Remember that if you are ever feeling needful there are mental health support helplines --> http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/stress-anx ... lines.aspx

I've exhausted most possibilities I know of in this stupid town I ended up in. Finished an Access course but still ended up banned from that college, and despite that course supposedly paving the way for a degree there are just no universities around. Even if I could go to one, I'm still alone, like I was when I went to a college, and courses are difficult in such a state (could only finish college due to the ex being there). I've checked meetup.com and there's just 20 groups that sound not very interesting to me. London has 200 on the first two pages to give a comparison. Perhaps I just have no 'luck'. Also, I'm not religious, so that kind of company would just be awkward... most of what I did in the past year was, indeed, to watch anime, but of course, alone...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z8A85cl5w3s

This would be me in jail.

Notice how people sense there is something different about him,
They do terrible things to him and then he reacts in the 'wrong' way
This just gets him in even more trouble

Prison could be sociable but it wouldn't be a good environment for someone on spectrum. If you are looking for new friends, you could try a support group. I am on Skype and always open to chat, it can be difficult to make new contacts.

Our spectrum issues/differences caused lots of us to be bullied in school. I'd imagine we'd be bullied in prison too especially sense prisoners are people who are known for causing problems for others.
Your Welcome to PM me if you'd like to chat with someone.

I'd rather die than go to prison, even if only for a short time. I've seen that show Beyond Scared straight, although they have been acting that way on purpose to scare the brats into redeeming themselves.

Being in the hospital and a shelter for severely mentally disabled people was as close to a prison as I want to get, which is never. Horrible food, much of it ground up into mush because some of the residents can't chew it, no privacy even when showering, being yelled at, threatened, degraded, bullied. BY THE STAFF. If I had stayed there much longer I'm sure I would have had a nervous breakdown. They don't see you as a human being. They don't care about your suffering. They don't care about helping you get well. They just drug you up so you won't be a danger to yourself and others. If that's what it's like in a shelter for the mentally ill, then I don't ever want to know what it's like in a prison.

Just the thought of it. All those people surrounding me constantly, touching me like I'm produce at the grocery store and lacking the ability to understand personal space and privacy. It makes my skin crawl.

I always thought that I'd do well in jail and if it wasn't for the birth of my daughter that is where I probably would have spent a lot of my life.

However, jail is not a holiday camp and you don't get to choose who you share your cell with.

I wouldn't advise it.

Those videos are really shocking when you know you wouldn't last long in there, and it's too late to do anything that would toughen you anywhere near enough.

I'm probably not the only one who feels those of us who wouldn't survive in prison don't really deserve to live---we're too spoiled and it's no wonder tough people who've had to fight bravely for survival their whole lives feel like torturing and butchering us like the weak scum we are.

In prison people aren't usually going to sit around and chat with you. They don't usually have an interest in it. They are going to be taking whatever you have that they want unless you can stand up for yourself and kick some serious ass, and even then you'll be outnumbered. The only "companionship" you'll get is when you join a gang so you can survive. The meds the Dr gives you will be taken, so will a good bit of your food and of course your radio and headphones. Whatever they want they will take unless you have a way to get over on them. And they will take your commissary too.

I have two ex brothers in law who are in prison now. One is in the prison near here about two miles away and the other is in Mississippi. The one in miss has a cell phone hidden and we text every day or so. Lots of guys have that in there. He even has a Facebook page too. And it's not fun for him. He's been in there 14 years so far and has 16 more to do. He's a big guy, as in muscular, and tough as hell but still gets his ass kicked and things taken from time to time. I won't go into too much detail but he runs a little "store" that has stuff the commissary doesn't and recently quite a bit of stuff was taken and he can't get it back. All contraband but not drugs or anything like weapons either. My other ex BIL is having just as rough a time but he's never getting out. Both of them also have hep c, which they got in prison and most everybody gets.

It is not an option for a better or even similar life. Not unless your idea of a tolerable life is being beat up, sexually assaulted, stolen from, intimidated, forced to do stupid stuff just to entertain others, be somebody's slave or maid, etc. What you have now would be literal paradise compared to prison.

I've been to jail a few times, but never served time there. I was only in waiting on a bondsman or to somehow come up with bail money or arraignment and then ROR. Longest I've ever been in was 11 days. It isn't like prison but it still really sucks. The people aren't always as hardcore and lots of time you can stand up for yourself and keep your stuff and not be at the bottom of the food chain. But not always. Some jails are nicer than others and are tolerable but some were just horrible.

Don't even consider either one please.

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