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I don't know where to put this - but I need some help. I've lived with ASD since I was a child and my parents have it too, though not as bad as mine. I think I'm having personality problems/disorder because I'm leading two lives and in the past have had several different lives and personalities, all with histories and fmaily... I'm worried about it in case I'm losing it. I don't know what to do or who to speak to. I came here as recommended by a friend. I don't want to seek professional help in case they lock me up. What should I do?

you're probably a troll. But I will take the bait anyway.

you're implying that you're multiple personality. As I understand it most folks with actual multiple personality disorder aren't aware that they have the disorder. So asking for help for you multiple personality disorder is self contradictory.

But I am not a shrink. So I could be wrong.

Or it could be that you mean that you are leading a double life (like you have two wives and two families), but I don't that that is what you mean.

IF this is for real then DO get professional help. Strangers online cant help you. You wont get "locked up" for multiple personality disorder I am pretty sure. They didn't lock up Eve, nor Sybil.

You may want to explain your condition with a little more detail.

Some individuals cope with the stress of being an Aspie by creating alternate personas. For example some people develop imaginary friends to help them interpret society from many angles. It is a coping mechanism.

I have developed a Myer-Briggs INTJ personality type. Others with this personality type describe themselves as follows:

“We choose to be ourselves and not care what others think. Intellectually being an INTJ is fun as hell! When presented with relevant, challenging, and coherent problems/books/ideas then we go crazy theorizing! In some ways the INTJ is a mixture between a seasoned professor and a observant fun-loving child.” “our logic is almost never wrong” “If suddenly something captures our attention, we just have to know each and everything about it.” “We are self confident individuals who know our strengths and weaknesses.” “Ideas are our forte. We identify with our ideas.” “INTJs can usually be quite good at accepting constructive criticism, if the INTJ respects the person giving the criticism.” “Things like authority, rank, and seniority mean little to most INTJs. For better or for worse, if I think someone is wrong, I will say so, whether they be a colleague, a teacher, or the CEO of the company. What matters most to many INTJs is getting the correct solution; it doesn't matter who produces it.” “ I prepare thoroughly before giving a formal presentation.” “utter earnestness, sincerity, and thoroughness. And a systems-oriented, big-picture mind.” “We usually see things from a million perspectives.” “We can stay alone for a loooong time: because there is a party going on inside our heads. A 100 voices talking, debating with each other about the best course of action around something.” “I felt very alone and ostracized as a child and youth because I didn't value the same things other kids did, didn't act the way they did, was consistently at the top of any scored intellectual activity (which always makes you less popular), didn't know how to gain the acceptance of my peers and didn't quite have a language to describe these feelings to my parents or others.” “Super Human Analytical Skills. I rely on this instinct often and it serves me well. Usually my snap decisions and judgments are spot on and brutally harsh.” “I learn quickly, sometimes intuitively. I can ride a motorcycle, go to sleep, play a computer game or otherwise ‘turn off’ active thinking, and come back and sit down and know exactly how to solve extremely complex problems. It's not that I didn't think about it, but instead my mind thought about it for me.” “ I’m hardly ever bored, because there are worlds, inside worlds, inside worlds in my own head.” “I am also an intensely private person. Most of the time even my closest friends and family don't know exactly what I'm thinking about or feeling because I prefer to keep it to myself.”

Does this description relate?

Start by reading the book «Thirty Years Among the Dead» by Dr. Carl Wickland.
Should be available for free in PDF-format if you search for the publication on-line.
You might understand better what is going on with you after reading it thoroughly.

According to the internet:

Dissociative identity disorder (previously known as multiple personality disorder) is thought to be a complex psychological condition that is likely caused by many factors, including severe trauma during early childhood (usually extreme, repetitive physical, sexual, or emotional abuse).

What Is Dissociative Identity Disorder? Most of us have experienced mild dissociation, which is like daydreaming or getting lost in the moment while working on a project. However, dissociative identity disorder is a severe form of dissociation, a mental process which produces a lack of connection in a person's thoughts, memories, feelings, actions, or sense of identity. Dissociative identity disorder is thought to stem from a combination of factors that may include trauma experienced by the person with the disorder. The dissociative aspect is thought to be a coping mechanism -- the person literally dissociates himself from a situation or experience that's too violent, traumatic, or painful to assimilate with his conscious self.

The "alters" or different identities have their own age, sex, or race. Each has his or her own postures, gestures, and distinct way of talking. Sometimes the alters are imaginary people; sometimes they are animals. As each personality reveals itself and controls the individuals' behavior and thoughts, it's called "switching." Switching can take seconds to minutes to days.

In seeking a solution to your dilemma the operative word is trauma. [a situation or experience that's too violent, traumatic, or painful to assimilate with his conscious self.]

Many Aspies have found that therapy targeting fear and stress such as programs that treat PTSD (posttraumatic stress disorder) are very helpful. These include somatic experiencing, beam life coaching, Tipi emotional regulation therapy, and exposure therapy.

I would recommend you read a book by Peter A. Levine titled "In an Unspoken Voice".

Is there a trusted contact person the authorities can reach to explain the situation if you do have issues?

Your situation is unusual but not surprising. People with autism don't fit, so it should not be surprising that we are prone to dysphoria disorders. May you find an understanding.

I think that you should try to get in touch with a professional on mental health to talk to about what you're experiencing especially if you're suffering from this a lot.

Most mental health professionals are non-judgmental. They have seen and heard it all. My advice would be to learn everything you can about ASD and if you think you have multiple personality disorder learn as much as you can about that too. Understanding it can be the first step to learning to live with it.

I've never heard of your problem before but I'm pleased your seeking medical help. Well done that's the first step to getting better.
And don't worry about the doctors most of them are very understanding and supportive ! Good luck.