So I have spent my whole life being a kind and caring person, I'm really honest now these days but when I used to be in school before I started home-schooling just recently I was treated HORRIBLE! I always followed the rules and did my best to be a good student, but I struggled my ENTIRE life being hurt by others treating me as their friends and secretly hating on me behind my back. I used to have extreme depression when I was a small kid in 1st and 2nd grade when I still lived in the state I was born in, I still deal with extreme depression and my family nor people around me can't understand me properly.
I don't know what to do with myself these days now, I'm usually home alone with my two dogs 24/7. I have had such a difficult life as a 13 soon 14 year old, I have done things to myself that I regret even though I haven't been able to feel emotions and feelings of pain properly after my first heart-break of losing a friend I thought would last longer than others.
Unfortunately I was wrong and now I'm falling apart again and I don't know what to do with myself, so many people have hurt me: girls that liked me in a romantic way that tried to make me do things I didn't want to, a love triangle I didn't even want to be a part of, a girl who wouldn't stop talking about her problems and hurt me, my own father, etc.
I really wish I knew what to do, does anyone have advice for me?
14 Jun 2019, 1:10 am
