It was not in my plans to give any preferential treatment to the person I spout about being or looking like an ideal son. I planned to ignore this person and letting them do what they want. They became unhappy with my presence due to ethics, morals, and impulsivity. I planned to leave them alone actually and keep my thoughts to myself. I cannot go back to this garden of eden place that kicked me out. No way of being or seeing or hearing from them. Kinda unsuspecting that efforts regarding email or texts be thrown away but.. I honestly understand when I rant for that long. To sabotage is to really do nothing for this area though secretly I wish/had wished it to get better or along those lines.. I miss.. what I cannot be around. There is no way of seeing all these people at once anymore. I might as well *have done something wrong to all three to be this way.
08 Mar 2020, 5:56 am
