I'm back already (whoops)

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Well, that didn't work out.

I think that instead of limiting myself entirely from this place, I will likely spend less time here in general. Things are starting to become busy again in my life. I've also realised that I've been condensing people here to concepts rather than considering the fact that you all have lives too.

My previous thread was rather dramatic. I was having a bad day and I think combined with the fact that I was somewhat physically run down, I saw my situation as heavier than it actually is. Recently I've realised how self-involved I've been.

I have a tendency to get stuck in my own head. There's a word I come across sometimes- sonder. The realisation that every passerby in your life is living a life as complex as your own. I think it's somewhat fascinating that we're all living overlapping narratives and that everyday life doesn't always make narrative sense. That sometimes there's no clear beginning or end to our experiences in the space of our life spans.

As much as I'd like to, I don't think I'll ever fully know myself because it's too vague a concept to put into motion. Yet I have enough of an understanding to feel comfortable of the fundamental aspects of myself to feel at ease (not always, how I feel about this changes). I don't have it all figured out, anyone who tells you they do is probably trying to sell you something. My sense of security in my identity is malleable and sometimes periodically called into question by myself and external experiences that make me question my internal values.

Oh wow, I sound pretentious don't I? My fleeting fascination with philosophy really shows here (I have a love-hate relationship with the topic). I think that it's all too easy to fall into the trap of falling too deep into introspection at the risk of lost time. Questioning life so much that you forget to actually experience it.

Anyway, putting all of that aside, I'll be returning to University soon. I'll be creating two computer games (both coding / building and designing the art for the levels) along with other projects and writing a dissertation. Oh, and I also have a socially-distanced date planned. This time I was the one who was asked out on a date. I hope that it goes OK. My point being that I'm going to be quite busy in these upcoming months. Still, I'll drop in here every so often when things are calm. I don't want to burn out, so I'll try my best to work in breaks into my schedule.

Plus, I also discovered that I don't hate tea- I used to think I did, but I actually just dislike regular tea- I prefer fruit teas. Just thought I'd amend that for no good reason about a post that is likely forgotten about.

Good to see you back. Take it easy. Enjoy the projects at University. Create something interesting! Go for it!
Let us know how things turn out.

Welcome back! you are clearly not lost dragon

Welcome back to Wrong Planet!

Welcome back!
I prefer regular tea....Tetley’s British Blend,actually.