graceksjp wrote:
I wish there was a cure for laziness. I cant seem to motivate myself to do anything
I tell myself over and over that I need to get something done, but then I get distracted doing five million other things and that
one thing I actually needed to do, doesnt get done. Its sad, cause once I actually start something I tend to be a pretty hard worker and tend to get it done pretty quickly to the best of my ability. But I am
such a procrastinator. Even getting out of bed and going to class is a struggle. (my attendance record is appalling, even tho I know it affects my grade and I hate that I keep skipping) Weird isnt it? I berate myself all the time, and yet....Im just too lazy.
Just yesterday I told myself over and over not to forget to work on my essay because I promised my mother Id have it done by spring break. Instead, I ended up being distracted by something totally random and writing like 20k words about that instead. My essay only needed to be 5k.
It doesn't sound like being lazy is the issue, you don't sound lazy at all. Ability to remain on task sounds like one of the issues, perhaps with lacking the energy and drive to do what's needed some days - but if you spend all of your time telling yourself you're lazy, feeling bad about it and lacking the motivation to see things that are difficult through to completion sounds like a natural consequence.
Struggling doesn't make you lazy, neither does failing because some struggles are overwhelming. Procrastination doesn't make you lazy either, but it can convince you that you are. All of this becomes a negative feedback loop that undermines you further, so instead of beating yourself up in an attempt to motivate yourself, focus on a few things you've succeeded at recently, remind yourself you've dealt with worse and keep your mind focused on how you're succeeding instead of how you're worried you won't succeed.
I guess the tl;dr version is 'treat yourself with compassion'.
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