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jamesohgoodie
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10 Apr 2009, 2:33 pm

So I graduated from college a few months ago, and I can tell you it's been no party since then. I haven't been able to find a job, my girlfriend and I recently broke up, I've started having serious anxiety issues leading me to break down crying over the simplest thing, and lately I've been looking at knives in a way that I KNOW is not healthy and it's really freaking me out. I live in Minnesota right now and I'm thinking of moving back home to stay with my family in Illinois.

My uncle said he'd be able to hook me up with a job for the summer. It's not much, but it could be a stepping stone to something better. It'd certainly give me time to get samples together for submissions (I'm a comic artist/illustrator/graphic artist) and would let me ride out the recession until more or better jobs open up. I'd have to stay with my parents for a bit, but it wouldn't be permanent and I'd move out first chance I get. I'd certainly be able to save what little money I have left, maybe have enough to buy a car or some extra equipment I need. Being amongst my old family and friends would certainly help with my recent depression.

The problem is...I'm trying to convince myself this isn't a step backward, or that I'm giving up. One of the reasons my girlfriend and I split was because she felt I was un-motivated and she was frustrated that I haven't found a job yet, even though I feel I was trying the best I could. Basically I'm trying to convince myself I'm not a loser by deciding to move back home for now.


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10 Apr 2009, 3:04 pm

I wouldn't see it as a step backwards. You sound a bit under the water and you might have a better chance to find your balance amongst supportive people that accept you for who you are.

Since you're fresh out of college any work experience will help, so I would take the job your uncle is offering and see how things go from there. It might just be the break you need.

Good luck


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11 Apr 2009, 12:31 am

im staying in the spare room in my moms house until the end of the month. i wouldnt worry about it, theres nothing wrong with it. especially since its temporary


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