Why do i cause so much pain?

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Been having a rough time lately.....

Been suffering from depression for a long time at least 4 years.
Recently after losing the one thing in my life i actually cared about i went down hill.
I went down hill so much that i have tried to kill myself every week for the past 3 weeks.
Nothing seems to work and i know some people would see that as a sign that its not my time but i think it is

I have cause so much pain to the people i love through stupid life choices.

I just wonder after all the mistakes i have made why am i still here. All i bring is anger and depression to everyone including family and friends.

I just dont like feeling this way.

Can anyone help?

let there be light! girl you are in need of some in your life, if thats you in your avatar. (im not trying to be insensative) but have you thought about ditching the goth look? put on a happy outfit, (even though you probably dont feel like it) and see if that helps out. doing anything you like will also help. what do you like to do? i dont know how old you are but when i was a teen i used to wear black, and i felt the way i looked. seriously

mmmmm well i ont always wear that sort of thing only at the weekend when i go out i do tend to wear bright colours.

ahh, well i see your still going out. people like you! getcha shoulder brush on

I hate going out though dont like to be around people atm

i think your just lonely and wanna talk. so when your in the moshpit, do you throw the horns? ive always wanted too and the next time i go i just might! ever since you cant bring lighters, i mean wtf?

mmmm yeah i know lol.

Yep its true i think i just need someone to well talk to really. I mean i am seeing a psyciatrist at the moment but its not the same i think i am after love. The love i felt with my ex. I dont think i deserve it though.

sounds like you have had a rough time of it
one important thing is try not to feel that it's all your fault and that you are to blame, and don't think you only bring anger and depression to your friends and family, they likely do care and will want to help you through this

I myself have had a rough time of it, though that ended today once and for all, during that time I felt depressed, it had been going on for the best part of 18 months, now I'm more open and live life to the full, I'm sure it will happen for you too, there is a light at the end of the tunnel, something good will come eventually... just give it time

course you deserve love, I felt I didn't deserve love for a short time at the beginning of the year as I was unable to love back (except one girl who has ALWAYS been there), there's someone for everyone, you'll meet the right person and they will love you for you. Also glad to see you're seeing a psychiatrist at the moment, that should help you some with a bit of luck

I wish you the best and hope things work out well very soon for you

if you feel you need to talk to someone, I am a good listener, now I am free of issues of my own I can help others with theirs the way I have in the past

Thank you that is very kind of you xx

Well, fellow sufferrer, having depression or suicidal incidents is nothing to be ashamed off. I suggest you talk it out on the forum and take a long walk outside. That will provide immediate relief.