Relationships with your mother

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It's confusing, most of the time I loathe her and sometimes I want her around. But right now I NEED to get away, every second I spend in that house with that mum of mine I just feel like I'll become increasingly crazy. I can't exactly escape because I've got college to keep up with, but I do get VERY tempted.

Good relationship with my mother. Interact with women well.

Bad relationship with father. Interact with men poorly. As a child I was terrified of men, as a teenager and adult I just couldn't relate to them.

But in regards to the latter, I was born with an inability to interact with men, thats why the relationship was poor.

I don't have a relationship with my mother and I prefer for it to stay that way.

As a child, I felt bullied by my mother. I couldn't seem to do anything right in her eyes, despite being an honors A student. Doing everything that she asked of me (which at times I felt was too much) and staying out of trouble.

However, my brother was her shining star despite being a c/d student, always breaking curfew, getting kicked out of high school, dropping out of college to lay up with his girlfriend at the time, and refusing to work or do anything around the house.

I never understood it.

My mother would beat me a lot when I when I was a kid. I got beatings for gp (general principal), whenever my brother would do things wrong, because I was left in charge (even though he is 3 years my senior) and for not responding to my mother's youngest sister's name (to this day, my mother still calls me by that name sometimes which is hurtful to me and I think that it's ingrained in me to answer to it for fear of what would happen when I did not answer to it).

My mother also ignored that my brother sexually abused me from the time I was 5 until I was 12. I would constantly tell her what was happening and ask her to say something to him about it and she would ignore me. Finally one day she says to me "I know what he's doing" and I finally got it. She had not intentions of doing anything to protect me.

I want nothing to do with her.

Maybe your moms are Aspies too or maybe they have some other mental irregularity. I know how you all feel because my gr-mother raised me and she was not the warmest or most sensitive. Now, I think she had aspergers and did not know it. In a way I feel superior to her and all other family member who did me wrong.

Thank you for sharing information about your mothers because since I've found out about my dx, I wonder how my daughter will judge me. All I know is I don't want her to hurt like me.

EmDaise, sorry about the sexual abuse. Just remember Oprah told her father about the abuse by the uncle and he didn't believe her. Look what happened to her. Sounds like your brother has a big problem that has nothing to do with you. You are self aware and know where you might make wrong judgments.

Some people at least try to be better and do better once they know. Other people are like some type of Godzilla. They run around the world destroying everything they see without regard. Sometimes you have to put on the life vest and save yourself. Swim away from the aftermath and start new.

Better said than done (I am still screwing up).