I've run across some of us who'd be willing to change, to be like them and I understand the reasoning but it's not a place I'd ever be.
The reasoning comes from how the world sees us and treats us. These people are simply tired of the abuse. Tired of the mourning that happens everytime one of our kind is born, as if we were all living stillbirths. I'm tired of these things myself. But instead of turning that rage against myself I turn it against the world, hopefully in a constructive manner. All I'm able to do right now is to make my voice heard, one small voice amongst the masses. When one of our kind is born I dance rather than mourn. This is one more chance for us to be seen as something other than a plague. Because we aren't, we are a gift, a different way of being.
I understand why you feel the way you do all that would be willing to change. I understand the messages that you recieve from both inside and out. I recieve them myself but I choose not to let that stop me.
There is a topic about being caught stimming on here. Personally I don't care if I am caught. I don't care what 'they' see or what they might think. They do things that I don't understand all the time.
I am what I am and I'd not change.
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"If you would convince a man that he does wrong, do right. Men will believe what they see."
"In what concerns you much, do not think that you have companions: know that you are alone in the world."
Henry David Thoreau