Is there any Aspie who wish they are born normal?

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AS is just a disability - how does that not make me a person?

I get irritated when other people on the spectrum say we're aliens instead of people, just because we have a disability. There are hundreds of different diversities that nothing can possibly make someone less human than others. I find it a stereotype. An offensive stereotype. Why should having a disability separate you from the general population?! I even feel sorry for children what are born severely deformed, when people say that they aren't people. That is not fair. It's just as offensive as saying white people aren't people, or black people aren't people. That’s how offensive it is to me, being called an alien just because I have a few learning difficulties.

occasionally i am jealous of normies and interactions they have that will always escape me. but for the most part i enjoy the way i am. pro's outweigh cons and such

I seem to have a strange attitude with social activities. When I think of all my cousins who go out to parties every week-end, I get horribly jealous. But if someone invited me out to a party, I would panic and say no. Then I go back to being jealous again.

I think it's because I wish that I wanted to go out to parties without getting nervous.
It's a funny attitude what goes round and round in circles. But there is more to life than parties. I'd rather just live in a flat, married to a handsome man, both working and earning a wage, and booking romantic holidays together. And meeting up with the few nice friends what I have got. And of course seeing my family at week-ends. That's all I want. Not too much to ask, and it is the average sort of life.

Dear Joe90, be fair to yourself. Have the courage to tell your family members, relatives and friends who are close to you - ask them for help. Skip those who won't help, or even likes to tease you. Look for caring and understanding people. But be sure you make yourself willing to try helping yourself first. Why I say like this is because sometimes I was something like this when I was young. Like they tell me to call this man "uncle", or say "thank you" yet I was too stubborn to call him 'uncle' or say "thank you"! -

One reason here was, I need to understand why I should say it, that only if I understand why, then I will say it. - But now I understand the reason is simply this - that it's the polite way of communication that people will like us, if we say such nice and pleasant words. This is something I never thought of when I was young, until my wife taught me. She even taught me the value of a smile. People like those who smile.

When I was young, I did ask my brothers for help, but they didn't help. Reason? They didn't understand I have such a great problem and need. Neither could I figure out how to explain to them my problem because more than 40 years ago, no one knows about asperger. My brothers just tell me I have to go and mix around, that I'll get used to it. But I did try, and it was really tough. Not knowing how to do it. But, if my brothers did try helping me in a way that I can learn, I'm sure it could help. But about 10-15 years ago, my wife did notice something wrong and I was glad she did try helping. Though I didn't improve as much as I wished for, but at least there's some improvement.

As for you, Joe, you already know it's asperger. So do your family members, relatives and friends. So, ask them for guidance. Whatever they try teaching, try practicing. If they teach yet you never try, they may give up on teaching you anything later.

Your aunt might be an aspie. Why I say this is as it is said, there seems 4x as many men than women being aspies - reason could be, some of the women are able to camouflage to being NT and not even knowing they are in aspie category. Sad to say, I know one woman just like your aunt, she always complain the secretary, accountant, boss, etc bullying her, skipping to many Co., yet each is same - bullied! But frankly, she's very pretty, so I couldn't figure out why they would bully her, but now I guess I know - it's because she can't socialize well, so somehow, she's being targeted when anything's not done right in the office.

As for getting help, look for other people among your friends or relatives who is willing to guide you. I'm sure one day you can find one who understands you and willing to help. Oh yes, did I tell you to google Neuron Learning? Very interesting, please read it.
http://neuron.typepad.com/neuron/

There's a lot I would give to feel comfortable talking to people without a barrier between us, or to be able to continue those conversations for longer than 30 seconds, to be able to not shut down in a group of people, or to enjoy senseless social interaction, to stop feeling lonely no matter who I'm with, to feel a sense of belonging.

There's a whole lot I would give up...

I always say that to myself. I don't want to be like all NTs, but I wish I had some of the essential abilities that most of my NT counterparts have since birth. Such as 1) permanently maintaining friendships (biggest challenge), 2) avoid saying or doing things that may piss others off, and 3) picking up nonverbal cues more quickly.

I can easily socially interact with people, but I think that having these 3 things just mentioned would help me become a better normal man.

I wish I was NT. I feel I don't have a personality because I have Asperger's. It's so textbook and matches me so well, I want to have a personality of my own.

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