does this sound like aspergers to you??????

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i want to know what you think does this sound like aspergers to you?
I an completely obsessed with computers specificity networking and Linux.
The majority of my time is spent in this even when im not in school.
I’m 23 and have never had a girlfriend. I have a small network of friends but it has taken me as long as a year to worm up to people. If I'm not conferrable it feels wrong to look someone in the eye .I hate small talk. I never know what to say, wear to look. I shave my head so to avoid smalltalk with the barber. I hate crowds. I went to BW3 with my friends and the combination of multiple TVs, dishes clinking and shoulder to shoulder people... I cant even explain my extreme discomfort.
I dislike being touched. especially unexpectedly. If I do not know you I mite even become violent if you get to touchy. I am sensitive to temperature. cant stand wind chimes. insomnia is a consent struggle. I seem to think people are angry when they are not.
I talk to myself. Not as thew I expect a response. I gust say allowed what should be in my head. Like a one sided conversation.
I pace a lot. If I am home alone ill pace back and forth from one side of the house to the other. Sometimes talking. If I am deep in thought especially.
I also rock back and forth. especially when studying. Or watching an action movie.
I have Learning disability’s I cant remember spellings. And I cant remember my times-tables. This makes it hard for me to do math in my head. BUT give me a basic calculator and paper and I can do about anything. The exception is subneting I do it so much I have every thing memorized

in high-school my pears seemed to think I was ether the dumbest one they know or the smartest.
They put me in LD class and didn’t teach me anything. I was bored and played with Cisco equipment and FreeBSD instead of doing my school work. I got F a lot. I drooped out and went strait to college after passing the accuplacer test so to get financial aide without a diploma and am now a 4.0 GPA student majoring in network engineering.

so does this sound like aspergers to you

yes, but asperger is not a disease, more like type of personality. sometimes the symptoms are more powerful tho.
I have mild asperger, it doesnt make my life too difficult, but the frustration I have to live with sometimes tries to break me down.
I want to change the world but there are lots of people who don't want it to be changed, besides that, there's a majority of people not really caring or know how to do that. I sorta wish I wouldnt think of things like that because it takes a lot away from my life, sets restrictions on how to live. I wouldnt mind moving to a forest to live by myself or start spending fastlane social life - sex, drugs and rock & roll or something like that.. BUT I cant cuz I find it selfish and against my beliefs that we all came here for a purpose but with free will, we may choose to fulfill our purpose or take it easy. bah.. rant.

About the crowd thing, I always need to know whats going on, I was with my friends in a place with lots of people but since my friends didnt really know whats going on, I don't understand this "just hanging around" thing at all, I always want a plan or something to do, so when such plan didnt exist and I was surrounded by the crowd, I got this strange feeling.. I started laughing to myself and told my friends "what the f**k.. I dont know whats happening, whats happening?" and they would just look at me like o_O. To me - it's like I couldnt decipher the code called real life because there were too many variables so basically I was just looking at all the data coming at me but couldnt really process any of it. Someone else might've freaked out, but my attitude saves me from a lot of situations.

I dont know if there's any point to this writing but I hope you can pick something out of it..

Yes it sounds like AS. Reading Tony Attwood's A Complete Guide to Asperger's Syndrome should make it more clear for you. Also consider getting a professional diagnosis.

this is amazing... it seems like every thing i google about my-self is ether a symptom or really common in AS or ASD
problem controlling their anger, bad Handwriting, Depression- especially in adolescents, word retrieval difficulties, self-injury, specifick memory problems, defishency in visual memory, increast ability to visualize, comonly diegnosted whith Learning Disabilities...

i don't understand. iv seen doctors before for depression, insomnia and whatnot. i was even hospitalized for 2 weeks when i was a kid. how was this not discussed or even mentioned? all thay ever did was give me medication. lots of it, that made things worse.

i keep researching and i am 96% shore i have AS or ASD. all the tests i have taken on-line have backed my self diagnosis. what benefit would i get by having an official diagnoses? or souled i gust go with it. ether way it is nice to have an expectation. or a possible explanation for why i feel so different. i do my best to act and i have become quite good at it. but i always thought some things seem to come naturally to others that i have studied, observed and imitated. its like im a secrete agent infiltrating and blending in to a......class lol

I rally appreciate your feed back thank you all

Its weird how similar you sound to me. I'm 24 just finishing Networking at college and im going to uni soon. The math, networking and gnu/linux, small talk, crowds, all the same. Took me nearly a year and a half to feel at all comfortable talking to people in my college. with he exception of the rocking, i tend to bounce my leg, all the time, i cant stop and i rub my fingers, a lot of the stuff you've said is eerily similar.

I cant say 100% i have AS or not, a couple of people who know some people with AS say i it does seam like it. But I got a referral from my doctor a year ago (NHS free , but takes forever) and just had an appointment last week with a psychologist.

I'm assuming your in the US? I know here in the UK they only started looking for aspergers in kids 20ish years ago, i could be wrong, but I believe anyone around 20+ years unless there was a big problem probably wernt picked up. some educational psychologist saw me in primary school because of writing and spelling and some social problems, but because there was some improvement they just said to keep an eye on it. So here i am today with the same problems