Do you think I could be a potential psychopath or...

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Is this my autism?

I am not fazed by death, I'm not afraid of it. When my mother died, I did not cry. At sad movies, I do not cry. I don't really sympathise with people either, I either tell them to grow up or it's their fault. I like taking pictures of dead cats, I think they look cool. I once watched videos of people committing suicide and I wasn't horrified by it at all. My Auntie told me she nearly died and it didn't affect me, same with my granddad dying.

I remember once when I was young my sister left me to play on my own to visit my stepmother at the hospital. I got angry, so I got some scissors and slit her cuddly toys throat? I sometimes have thoughts of blood and gore, which is really weird.

I'm not sure if I'm manipulative.

Yeah.

Your bias on death means that those comments should pretty much be disgarded.

You need to look at other signs, like when do you feel guilty, for the little things to, like when take someone seat on the bus etc etc.

Taking pictures of dead animals... well as long as you don't kill them yourself. The thought of taking such pictures makes me feel disturbed.

It's possible that you have some callous unemational traits and thinking patterns.
I wouldn't go that far and call them "psychopathic" as long as you don't hurt, manipulate etc. anybody.

Now, I am no expert, and you will need to look it up, this is just an idea - but a fascination with gore apparently also can travel with bipolar - mood disorder can travel with AS ... . Or, it could just be the way your emotions "come out." You might not recognize that they are emotions. I'm like that - I need "something" in their stead. My doctor points them out to me. I have had people tell me to calm down and act like I am wound up, and yet I think I feel fine. I don't know.

I grew up in the bush and was raised on wild meat. My curiousity took me into some play that many would find disturbing (not so much in a country setting where most lived in this manner) - but, I was just looking and exploring. I like to know how everything works.

Do you know Stephen Wright's "Here Kitty" song?

You are definitely not a psychopath.

You probably have Narcissistic Personality Disorder

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narcissistic_personality_disorder

I don't think psychopaths ever ask 'Am I a psychopath?'. I'm not a psychiatrist, but I doubt very much that you are a psychopath.

I am not qualified to give you an answer but I can give you my opinion. If you want this answered you should speak to a pro I think.

That said, I have been in a similar boat in that a few years ago (long before understanding AS) I was trying to make sense of a few things like how I didn't feel like I really connected with other people, how my emotions seem detached and different to most people and also the way I felt I had to constantly put on an act of being 'normal' when interacting instead of it just coming naturally. I logically narrowed the cause down to being either a sociopath, phycopath or possibly schizophrenic. I was convinced as it seemed to make sense but also shocked and afraid.

If you are indeed going through something similar then I know how that feels. I have also heard that in general, actually psychopaths would likely have no fear of the label and might even be proud of the condition since they would look down on everyone else. I don't really get affected so much by things like death and you might want to read up on alexithymia as it can maybe explain some of that. Also, killing animals is an indicator but it does not sound like that interests you.

End of the day, we don't know you enough to answer so seek a pro's advice and I expect they will be able to reassure you.

Have you.....

1). Consistently wet the bed after the age of 5?
2). After the age of 7 consistently set fires, destroyed property?
3). After the age of 7 been cruel to animals, harming, or killing them in the process?
4). Are you extremely egotistical and/or Socially dependent?
5). Do you like or enjoy the control and manipulation of others?
6). Have you experienced a Psychotic break or a break from reality as the result of Trauma or some other experience?
7). Do you consider yourself Chaotic Neutral in Alignment?
. Do you exhibit a chaotic stance regarding life? You are out for yourself, and no one else. You shed no tears for those you harm or malign, whether for sport or your own obvious gain. You have no love for structure, nor to obey laws, traditions, or codes would make you seem normal from a societal standard.