How do i accept that im different

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Being normal is overrated. Besides, you fit in with us right here. I used to consider myself so unique until I read some books about aspies. "Wow, I'm not special at all. This book is my manual."

I don't think being different makes one unhappy, but being insecure about it does.

Looking in the mirror, that's how you're used to see yourself, but it's the inverse image of how you look to others.
When you see yourself on film or vid , you see yourself how others see you, the others are used to seeing you like that. But for yourself it might be very strange, a completly deformed view of how you know yourself! So you might feel terrified by that. (I did)

What is perceived as the normal is an unrealistic thing that can never be achieved. Everyone has their own weirdness. I know with me I have challenges that some others might not have. A lot of the time I struggle but in life we are who we are.

No price is too high...

"The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself". ~Friedrich Nietzsche

If thats the case then i have little reason to believe anyone should want to be my friend, ofcourse im no saint, and had i met myself from someone elses perspective i would have rejected myself

Why would you say that, my friend?

I don't see any reason why you can't make friends. Especially via your looks.

I have friends, not the friends i wish i had, unfortunately i prefer to have friends that are good looking, because it makes me feel like one of the cool guys, like alot of aspies my despair and sadness is due to a myriad of things including unemployment, loneliness, wounds from past rejection and bullying, low self esteem, feeling unloved by family as a child, fear of abandonment, etc etc etc etc, s**t, maybe i am awesome, but i cant seriously expect to ever get over that much stuff

Yes, you can get over it. You may have to do some serious mourning first, and come to terms with the unexpressed feelings you have stored up over the years, and explore why you are invalidating yourself now. My guess is that someone close to you seriously undermined your confidence at some stage, and you are still reacting to whatever that was. It's past. The point of power (and change) is always in the present. You can't change the past, though you can change the future to an enormous extent - or not. You have your health, your intelligence, your youthful energy, you have time. Explore the barriers, but don't regard them as brick walls, or you will build yourself a terrible prison.

Well It is believed that all relationships are based on sex!

So maybe that's why you prefer good looking friends... You must want to get it on with them.

I guess we can't be friends

You should pick people based on character, personality, and other good things.
Instead of basing it on looks.

Or maybe it just something that straight people do that I just don't get (Most straight people have brought looks into it).

Good points here. It's not usually a good thing to compare yourself to others, but I do believe it's good to realize others have bigger problems than we do. That's why I quite like the phrase "first world problems," as it reminds us that we have it pretty good compared others.

And I believe that's true - that most people aren't satisfied with themselves and feel like a failure in some way. I know some highly successful people and I kinda doubt some of them are ever really completely satisfied with themselves. They're not content in business or their area of expertise as they're always pushing themselves to do more and be better. And how you do anything is how you do everything, so they likely continue to raise the bar for themselves, too, and are never really satisfied with who they are since they're always wanting to be better. In some ways this is really good for them, but in others I can see how it can lead to feelings of failure if they're not constantly posting new high scores in whatever their pursuits are.

First of all I can see the pain in your photo...i know it is very deep.
These people are not discounting that or saying that any of this is easy....it is not.
I have been where you are...filled with self-loathing and despair...hating my life.
It can be better.
It can remain a nightmare.
In either case you will choose how you will view yourself.
You are here and sharing because you want to change and to choose better.

If you will commit to the path, you will likely need cognitive-behavioral therapy(CBT) to help you understand your Self and how to change the way you think.

It IS work and it sucks sh*t, but it works.
May peace replace your pain.