Obsession with starting things over?

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I keep starting a lot of things over. When I play video games I'm unsatisfied with my playthrough (like if I die or spend perks "wrong") and want to start the game again. I've been trying to keep an art journal/sketchbook and I've had to buy a few sketchpads because I start one but don't like what I wrote or drew in it so I either tear the page out or I go and buy a new one. I also try reading, but again I get a few pages in and start again. I think it's partly because of the brain fog I've been experiencing for some time, I find it difficult to concentrate and absorb information so I have to go back on things. Maybe I want things to be perfect too, but they never will be. I wish I could just go with the flow like I used to do...I feel like I've gotten to the point where I'd like to just start my whole life over again.

Who else has an obsession with starting things over and can relate?

Yes, I do the same thing. It's perfectionism. Kind of OCD-like behavior, also. I've gotten better with it though.

People with Asperger often seek order and, thus, perfection, and are frequently disturbed when that state is not achieved.

I can relate to what you said, although I must say this has declined somewhat for me over the years.

I sometimes do that when I play an instrument. I play, it is not perfect enough and then I start again and again. It can be that I don't even reach the end of the first line for many tries because of mistakes that are not that important, but nevertheless I cannot accept them and start again.
But it depends on my mood a bit. I have days when I do that more often and then there are days when I can tolerate my own imperfection to a degree that I can finish a song even when I make mistakes. I have to do that at least when I play for others because they don't want to listen to the beginning again and again but listening to the whole song.