Stimming in your mind

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Do you ever find that after stimming physically for a while you lapse into doing the same or similar stim but mentally as if you are doing it for real but it's actually just in your head? Your physical actual body is still or engaging in some other stim but the one in your head feels real? Like you are actually doing it?

For instance, I rock while sitting pretzel style and put tension on my hair and my forearms against my sternum because of pressure with my elbows each in the crease at my outer hip bones and my other hand applying pressure to my jaw and holding my head pressured to one side. As I am doing this I eventually get really, really "zen" I guess but in my mind I am doing a thing I really want to do but it gives me a headache: rocking while swinging/shaking my head side to side. In real life this also makes me sick. But I crave doing it and it happens in my head. This "imagination" stimming happens a lot and it's as if I am doing it for real, minus the ill effects. I suspect I may have done this head swinging thing as a child because it was so familiar when I did it for real yesterday with the added dimensions of reality (hair noises and touches, etc, things that don't present when I am doing it in my mind) trying it to see what would happen as I had this whole experience yesterday and was curious to try it for real. That's how I know it gives me headache and makes me sick.

Does anyone else have this kind of "imaginary" stim thing?

I do not have an ASD diagnosis because I haven't been able to actually seek one from someone qualified.

Thanks.

When I'm boring or I'm stressed I repeat a word in my mind until I calm down. When I'm happy I imagine myself in a train and stimming with the sound of wheels on railroad

Interesting. I do other similar things though with the repetition it's usually numbers for me like "1,2,3,4,1,2,3,4,1,2,3,4...".