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I think that the vast majority of people have no particular talent. You can be totally "ordinary" , have absolutely no talent, work hard on little things that you like and find your way in the vast majority of unknown and untalented people like you, and be happy. That is pretty much what everybody does.
Unfortunately that's what most people seem to do in this world, and why particularly as an adult I don't fit in. It's very frustrating and discouraging to see mediocre people succeed when people with a genuine spark of genius don't.
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Also, I don't think that people will ever love or recognize YOU “for your talent” (because you have no merit as it came without working on it).
People will love you or recognize you for the “little things that you do”, day after day, for your little efforts.
Again, it unfortunately seems this is true for many people as well, and over time it breeds a deep, dark, explosive resentment. So many girls seem to judge guys by the "little things they do"--these are more romantic to them than having a beautiful imagination. As soon as a girl I'm around emits a "whiff" of this value system, she loses major attractiveness points in my eyes.
This is because, at the worst times of my life, my special talents, and the beauty they allow me to see in the world, is the only thing that keeps me going. When, due to stress, depression, illness, whatever I don't have the energy to actually MAKE anything out of my talents, when I don't even leave my room, my inner ability to imagine certain things doesn't disappear (even if it becomes slightly reduced). Therefore, unlike all those "little things", it's what will be with me always, and for me to truly love and be loved by someone, he/she BETTER see those as the "real me".
On the other hand, it's possible that I've been able to develop that value system because I've always had other people around me to "do the little things" to keep my life from going off the rails when I go deep into a world of imagining. In that sense, possibly these people who have contradictory value systems got that way for a reason that they couldn't "help" either. I definitely agree that people like myself do best with a "minder" in our lives to take care of the executive function/relating aspect of life.