I recently made a post about a job advert that fell into my inbox and piqued my interest.
It has made me think further about my current career choice.
I am employed as a teaching assistant, studying my final year for a degree, after which I am hoping to do a course which will qualify me to teach, hopefully those with special needs.
More and more, and especially since this email, I am wondering if I am in the right sector. Which is pretty upsetting, seeing as I've been pursuing this degree for 9 years now. At work, and even out of work to some extent, I have to repress my autistic traits and work hard to appear 'normal'. I have to behave according to policies and current practices in my school, even when I don't believe in them.
Don't get me wrong, I like working with children and I love my job most of the time. I just want to be able to do it the way I want to. In my current school, I am not really able to do that, but I am committed to this job until July next year (this is a personal committment), unless there are changes. Also some particular aspects of my autism make doing this job difficult at times (though I am hoping once I become a teacher and even a training teacher I will have more autonomy).
Then there are the warnings that I read on twitter and have heard from others that teaching is not a respected profession here and a very difficult job indeed in my country at the moment.
So I wonder, do I pursue this career, that I have dedicated myself to for the last 9 years, or do I maybe look for something that could be more autism friendly? Will I ever feel comfortable being myself in a school? Am I foolish hoping that working in a special school will be different?