When the clouds clear

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Sometimes I get lucky in a social situation, and all it needs is what I have, usually through imitation. I think that I normally walk around with a lot more clarity than average regarding quite a few technical subjects.

I've definitely experienced that sort of "clearing."
the biggest reason I'm not fond of functioning labels is because I do not function the same day to day. I'd hate to be tied to a functioning label when it doesn't fit me. some days are better than others. so, some days, it's clear. ish.

Dear_one thank you I am guessing that if you found yourself as the only expert in a group that really needed to know about your topic and was clearly willing to listen, you would feel no difficulty being relaxed and "more yourself", amIright?

....so where would I be, in this scenario?

I actually experienced this. And I wish I'm consistently in a clear state.

My behaviors and thought processes are as different as night and day. My executive function is working, myself is being the actual chronological age that I should be than the dead weight person I'm trapped with.
Both the subjective and the objective are different from me being in this fog.

My experiences didn't only lasts for hours. I had once experienced one that lasted a week. I had never felt more like myself.

And yes, this isn't autism.
This is whatever biological sensitivity crap that I've yet to solve. I want a "cure" against this cloud/fog/whatever.

My personal theory was sleep and stress.
There's this very distinct sensation as to when I'm in the better state. Usually, regardless of what I feel or thought -- it's regulated, I'm in command where my intentions HAVE meaning and matches my words and actions.
Usually, that sensation while at rest feels like a break from this physical reality where there's literally incomprehensibly nothing to sense -- not even time and space. It's different from sensing time passed after sleeping.
And waking up/awake? Something felt lit up in my head. Waking up a bit eager -- even if a part of you says I'm comfortable and lazy.

A half an hour of meditation gone right would give me few hours.
3 hours of quality sleep would give me a day.
8 hours of quality sleep would give me a week(!).

From where I came from and with my current lifestyle? I don't know if it's possible for me to find a way to be at least semi-permanently this way.

I struggle with sleep for most of my life -- to a point I have to keep track of my reproductive cycle, what and when I eat, how much screen time I had, etc.
But I can't keep it up yet. I do not have enough discipline.
And I hadn't found a supplement that supports that (which is particularly slow for me -- please no advices for this for now).

If there's a way to fix my sleep quality, or a form of diet... Or some form of stimuli management.
I've yet to find it while working 48-72 hours a week on average... But I keep hoping.

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Edna that sounds like just what I am talking about. It could be sleep, or the perfect combination of supplements, or a chance lack of allergic foods. I also had a couple of days where my breathing fell into the right rhythm and I was unable to feel any anxiety. I'm always looking for the next clue to how my processing can work properly, and I long to find out what will work for my family member.

Thank you for this post and I am sorry I took a bit longer than I expected to reply. I don't think it is autism either but I think it could be diagnosed that way.

PS I heard you when you said "regulated" and the Crappy Childhood Fairy talks a lot about dysregulation. Her ideas on what to do about it seem to be working for me - somewhat.