I always go with the flow and avoid competition, which is more obvious in the recent job search/entering school stage. I feel daunted by possibilities and the unknown. I don't understand why others work hard or want something.
I want a good university admission notice, I want a technical job as a starting point for my career, and I don't want to waste this year's preferential treatment for the civil service examination. I want perfection, even if there is no such perfect person who can do all three things at the same time.
My grandfather once commented that I act too dependent on interests. I used to attribute it to low intelligence or the only child environment. Now I know it is perfectionism, but I think it accounts for a large part of my makeup and may not be changed.
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For I so loved the world, that I gave My theory and method, that whosoever believeth in Me should not be oppressed, but have a liberated life. /sarc