What's your escape?

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Do you have a safe, comfortable place in your mind that you can escape into? If so, what does it look like?

It's a movie, that changes through characters, plot lines and location since I was about five years old. When ever I'm bothered by thoughts I just think up a story in my head and it plays like a movie.

I'm in a grassy field on a warm summer day and sitting underneath a tree. I'm surrounded by wild animals doing what they do naturally, being a part of nature as nature was supposed to be. There is no obligations to do anything. I can simply sit and watch the world go by.

sleep
tried drinking a few times, didn't work at all
just liked the taste

so i avoid it like the plague

i write a story - more of an intellectual analysis involving unusually young intellectuals. I see myself in a calm blue room, where the ceiling slants and there is a wide window with white gauze curtains. On the writing table is a lamp, basking the books in mellow light. Fitted into the wall is a bookshelf containing interesting things such as psychoanalytic journals, literary classics and Darwin's works. Probably a few existentialist novels, the sort you read on a Sunday evening. The bed is roomy, soft and white. No one but I can enter this room. It is situated in an imaginary relative's house, probably my great-aunt's. (I do have a nice great-aunt but she doesn't own a place like this.)

my escapes... creating storylines in my head as well as writing battle seanes and designing characters for them.. another one is just thinking about the world and its perpose.

and of course fantasy books manga, anime and video games

My escape is music and lyrics translation.
And I go away to world of books, I like to read fiction, that's not true that Aspies read only encyclopedies.
When I am off, I become sth - pattern, machine, sound... and I feel somewhat better.

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Pow pow pow (that's shooting stuff), and putting my head on a soft pillow.

When at home: Computer games (strategy or RPG), Hulu shows/movies, youtube music (which one WP or another web site), reading

When working: Random music clips, movie images/scenarios in my head

Monaco in my head, coz it's where I'm moving to when I'm older and rich. But when I'm in my house, I like going to my room and flapping while just getting lost in my mind really.

My escapes are not unlike others posted here. If I am extremely upset, I create a whole new existence for myself, characters to interact with and a storyline to follow. Other things I use to escape are music - listening and composing, gardening - if the weather allows and creating art - sculpture, painting, drawing or mixed media. Meditation and visiting my inner landscape is a great escape for me as well.

Taupey

Listen to music, but usually I watch a film or some Monty Python stuff, always cheer me up those guys do. Last week I went shopping after tidying up after my meltdown and that made me recover and realise the problem wasn't so bad after all.

I'm attempting to find that place. I work for an ambulance and after an meltdown and me screaming and hollering and having a major anxiety attack my co-worker finally took me to the Mental Health Hospital via my own ambulance around here because they took something I said as a Suicide Threat. In my head, That wasn't what it was. It was just you'd never see me around that building again, cause I was sick of the crowd there that made it hard on me. They didn't admit me, because after they made me wait for 6 hours in a triage waiting room, I was calm.

I agreed to PT, OT, and counseling hoping to stop acting the way I do. They told me my AS is just an excuse kinda like alcoholism. I don't quite understand that method of thinking they had, and I don't think I use it as a Krutch like they say I do. But it kinda lit a fire inside me determined to get where I want in life and not let anything stand in the way. I decided to quit taking Ativan and just let my meltdowns come out. And then I'm going to learn how to control my emotions so i don't take it out on everyone, and quit beating myself up. I think I maybe taking this post off-topic but it seemed the right time to vent and make sense of my own plan.

Has anyone here ever done Physical therapy to help with the clumsiness or Occupational therapy to help with learning the social aspects?
How did you guys develop "that place" in your mind, and how do you get to that point when you start to get upset?
Has anyone my age (21, female, also diabetic) done the Gluten/ Casein/ Soy diet and what effect did it have on you?

I finally a "job" I like. I can handle it, even with the social aspects. When I interact with people like me, it's hard. And the boss is sick of the "drama" as he calls it when I have a meltdown. And so it's either change or lose my chance at getting what I want in life. So I'm asking for your help and opinions on things.

Thank you for your time.

A.

Distractions make it hard to escape to my own mind.



A bit drastic? Maybe but it works.

The Hawaiian Island of Kauai. If you can climb the green volcano all the
way up to above the clouds, its (like) going to heaven.

The MYST series of games. Beautiful scenery and interesting machines
and books that make you travel through time. Nothing makes you die
so you can just wander around in them.

Probably Secondlife.com but I never tried it, since I have my own version.

3D pictures. If you search the internet you can find out how to easily make
all different kinds with a digital camera. (and many other ways)

Music...,
And other recordings (of certain natural places like beach, waterfalls,
rain forests, babbling streams, ... even stereo recordings made in places
with people, all these so realistic that you can close your eyes and think
you are in those places).

Real castles (mansions) and gardens.

Hedge mazes.

Sculpture gardens, sometimes are like being on another planet with alien
machines.

Getting lost in some of those places on purpose.

Secondlife? I never tried it but I do like Virtual Reality Worlds in general.

Certain kinds of CAD systems let you design buildings and then explore
them, although it is probably easier to do the same thing with the level
editor of a raycasting engine, or any LEGO game that might have the
feature of letting you build something and then shrink yourself so you
can wander around inside of it. I used to wish I had that all the time,
but I used my imagination instead. If the LEGO games do not have
the feature of building and going inside things, then the same effect
can be done with an endoscope, but it is a very expensive thing to
use as a toy.

Landscape synthesizers. Terragen is freeware. Pandromeda is the one
that made the Genesis Planet in the Star Trek movie (#2?) with Kahn.
I think those are both still available and can be used to 'fly".

This site is very old. When it was made, the web still had background music
until the music police put up STOP signs. It doesn't work for me anymore
but who knows it might work for some people. "FLYING DREAM".
http://ultravires.net/flying.html
The mouse has some control, if anything happens at all.

Flight Simulator? Google Earth? Google Mars?

Many people including myself have wished for a way to record and
share DREAMS. It is not totally impossible. Good artists "take pictures
of dream worlds" and show them to people. The art from the vinyl
albums Yessongs and Close To The Edge (and other Yes albums and
also Asia album) were drawn or painted by Roger Dean, and many
people think a place on Pandora in Avatar was "borrowed" from his art.
Try Youtube search for "Roger Dean Animated".
Many people have longed to enter and visit the worlds he painted.

Recommended video "Beyond the Mind's Eye", is Virtual Reality type cgi
demos made before any of you heard of the www or Pixar. Lots of flying
in cgi worlds in it.

Recommended video with lots of music interest, bands of impossible
cgi instruments playing themselves in ANIMUSIC. There is one with lots
of ping pong balls shooting out of PVC pipes and hitting drums and bells
and horns and stuff, which is probably the most famous.

If you like H@rry P0tter and wish you could go to H0gw@rts then
try the video games. I tried one for Nintendo Wii. I obfuscated the
name because the author and publisher have been very aggressive
against people who as fans have created related art, and that is why
I can't find a certain very interesting thing anywhere on the internet.
But the game may be the next best thing to what's missing on the internet.

Daydreaming, Lucid Dreaming, Regular Dreaming,
Making sand castles (with SUNSCREEN on!), or clay castles, or LEGO castles.
Building and then being in a tree house, as long as it is safe.
ETC.

1960s London and related music is my escape. It helps to ground me.