urbanpixie wrote:
Hi GetBusy,
Welcome! I'm new here too.
I'm not sure I'm the best person to provide a perspective, but I thought your post was interesting. My thoughts:
I'm here because I have recently realised both of my parents may have AS. (not sure if I do) I was on the phone with my mother today talking about a choice to make and I said to her "Do you understand that I feel emotionally torn about this decision?"
She replied. "No. I don't put emotions into any decision that I make- I logically assess my priorities and choose accordingly." This surprised me because I always make choices at least partially based on emotion.
I share this with you because it does fit with what you said about looking at things "uber-rationally." Whether or not it's part of AS, I would think that in some situations it's quite beneficial to be that objective.
Is your rational-decision making the only reason you think you have AS, or are there other reasons? I look forward to hearing your thoughts as well as others' opinions on this.
To answer your question, It is not the reason I think I have AS. These reasons revolve more around my lack of social/communication skills and my feelings of wrongness/strangeness that I have had all my life.
The problem for me is that although AS has provided a rational explanation for all the issues that I have faced in my life (seriously, I'm more relaxed and at peace than at any other time of my life.) at 51 yrs old
sorting out which parts of my behaviour are down to AS, which are just my personality and which are defence mechanisms that I have subconsciously adopted in order to function is taking some sorting out.
Do I want friends and to be more social ?.
Do I tell people or not ?.
Do I attempt to soften my approach and become less confrontational (blunt). (seriously, I can seemly upset people just by being in the same room and totally unintentionally)
The original question was just my way of coming to an understanding about myself.