Joe90 wrote:
I need to go on some sort of meds to calm myself down, since my short-temperedness and high irritability and agitation is just too much for me to just change overnight. But I have developed this fear of taking meds because of the side effects. I know I won't know 'til I have tried them, but I still feel anxious of the risk. I know I'm not the only one feeling this way about tablets, and neither are you. It is common for people to feel nervous of taking meds because they don't know what it might do to them.
Most anti-depressants seem to cause sleep problems, digestion problems, and/or appetite/weight issues. And at the moment I am a good sleeper, have a healthy digestive system, and have a good appetite with no food intolerance and I'm at a healthy weight. I think I'd rather stay anxious and stressy than to lose any of those. Plus meds don't work miracles, so it's no good saying the ends will justify the means because ''meds will change me into a less anxious and stressy person and so will decrease anxiety and stress of loss of sleep/unbalanced digestive system/food intolerance'' or whatever.
I also worry that anti-depressants might make one of my other symptoms worse. I don't want my social skills to get worse, although I'd rather make common social faux pas BUT mentally not care of what others might think and just be confident in myself, than make less social faux pas but be extremely self-aware of anything I might do wrong and worry all the time of what other people think of me. It seems whoever you are, people go for confidence, charm, and charisma. OK, sorry, went a bit off-topic there.
Off-topic? No. You actually expressed most of my concerns too. I was lifting and running constantly while on Zoloft and got buff but still fat. It has taken more than 1 year to knock off most of the belly fat to the point where I actually feel good-looking again. I thought of myself as ugly after gaining all that weight, which definitely did not help with anxiety or depression. Now that I finally feel attractive, I would not want to ruin it.