Being Really Pissed Off Makes Me Smile Like A Sociopath

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My roomie just tore me a new one. I'm one of those kinda messy AS types. It's not that I intend to be; I just don't see the mess until it hits a certain point. And it wasn't like I was leaving my mess on her side of the room or anything.

So instead of talking to me about this last week when it was really pissing her off, she just ignored me all week (something that really rubs me the wrong way) and went around slamming doors really loudly (something that REALLY wigs me out-- sudden loudness and all). So after she finished tearing me a new one, listing all this minute bs that only a neurotic preppy b***h (I'm living with a prep for god's sake) would care about, I'm left sitting silent, staring at the wall, violently shaking, feeling some good heartburn come on and, yes, smiling like a sociopath. Eyes wide, that sort of murderous glint in my eyes, smiling like I could kill someone and not give a damn. I hope she sees me and it freaks her out. F*ck her.

Anyone else get like this? How do you act when you get really pissed off? I'll accept any words of understanding/caring too.

I think your going to have to kill her

Sounds good to me. Luckily this is just temporary. Next semester a friend of mine is moving in with me. This girl is dropping out. It's funny; she's my roomie, but this friend is Chinese and only speaks English so-so . . . yet lately, she's been saying more to me than my effing roomie.

I recommend watching "Fellowship of the Ring" with a cat on your lap and a mug of hot chocolate. Works for me. Anyway, by the end of a 3 hour+ movie, you'll have forgotten what you were angry about.

I know some good curses in Chinese (I had a Chinese friend in college). Apparently my accent is pretty good, too. What an opportunity to expand your linguistic horizons!

I get the same exact way when I am really pissed off, anger is therapeutic for me. I swear, I would have slammed a chair over her head or something, I'm a bit of a pro wrestling nut.

I shut down. I need to be alone. After I am alone, I feel better and analyze the situation. If it's me who needs to apologize, I'll do that. It takes alot to make me flip out and go nuts in front of someone else. For some reason, I feel like people poke me with a stick because they WANT to see that. I'd rather not.

The whole sudden bad noise thing is bothersome. I don't think she'll see it from your point of view.

I tried to tell her that I would work on those things if she'd STOP SLAMMING THE DAMN DOOR. I even told her about the AS and how it was really wigging me out.

This is definitely not my fault. I own up when it's my fault. You know, honesty and all that. I understand though about the alone thing. I'm still in the same room as her, but I have headphones on and every time I happen to turn that way, I make sure my smile is really freaky. *cackles maniacally*

The worst part was before she ever talked to me, she was talking on the phone and kept saying things along the lines of "god, I'm really pissed off at her, she's a f*cking b***h." And I was like, either she's talking about me or someone else . . . and I bet it's me. And THEN she laid it into me.

Damn, thats f****d up.
I don't react well under pressure, if I don't expect somebody to be pissed at me, I fold like a lawn chair when they express their anger, because so many thought are running through my head and I don't know what I did or how to react, so I just stumble around like an idiot.
But if I heard that phone call, being paranoid that everybody hates me and all, I would expect she was talking about me, then I would expect her to be pissed, and when she starts to b***h at me, I would be a f*****g viscous force, and THEN I would slam a chair over her head if she didn't recoil and apologize.

yeah the problem is her. What a b***h. Is there anyway for you two to stop being around each other? I wonder what would happen if you started doing that to her.

One way to get away from her is if shes in a coma.
A good chair to the head might do the trick.

Lol. That's why I love you guys. "A good chair to the head," was most of y'all's suggestions for what to do. *giggles*

I wish I could, but I have this thing about blood . . .

If you got a thing with blood, then thats the whole point of the chair!
It can cause severe pain or a concussion or just teach a lesson, but it doesn't make you bleed most of the time.

I smile, grin actually, when I intend to hurt someone physically.

I don't know why I do such; I guess it could be a joyous thing, or some innate "trick" evolution has bestowed onto me (like the supposed left-handedness). No one thinks you're about to harm them when you're grinning at them.

Yea if I was you I would just try to find a new roomie. See if I had a roomie and she was doing that to me, she wouldn't make it, I think I would already be visiting her at the funeral home before I came on here hahaha. I totally know what you mean by anger, when I get angry, somebody gets hurt, I'm sorry if your in my way, and I'm fully raged, your dead haha. I feel so horrible for saying that, but even when I was a baby, my nickname was tiger because I would try to scratch your eyes out, and bite you because of how angry I was .

So my best advice for you is to defintely try to get away from her, if this is at your college, go contact your residential advisor and explain that this roomie needs to leave before theirs a bloodshed, hopefully not with those words haha. Or go look for a new apt, especially if shes not willing to talk to you and just make it worse.