kraven wrote:
I find that as I age I have more life experience, which means more loss and more personal tragedy. This helps me to be better at identifying with the feelings of others.
Apart from losing the odd family member or pet, it's possible you haven't ever seen anything die that you valued or identified with, and so death is a far and unfamiliar concept that is completely abstract to you.
I think this could be very relevant. I haven't even lost a family member I've been close to, and while I had a few pets for a short time, I never really connected with them. In most cases I feel a profound disconnection from the rest of the living world, except for in the sense of wanting to understand how life "works" on a molecular level.
Since I have a fundamental bitterness about how a lot of things work in the world, I tend to identify with individuals who feel "against the world". That's probably part of why I (and maybe the OP) have a hard time empathizing about this tragedy--I reflexively identify the moviegoers with "the world" and tend to try and put myself in the shoes of the shooter, only secondarily trying to see myself in the position of one of the victims. I'd actually be more apt to empathize with
both sides if it had been a duel between two individuals--then there is no "person" or "world", and I would weigh the two equally.
Along these lines, while I want relationships for the sex, it possibly is even more to be able to feel a connection, to feel joined to someone else's body and life processes. If I sometimes feel in some respects barely alive, how do I empathize with a mass death?