F5c_wZ3_414e_X5 wrote:
Imagine it.
One day you find an article about Asperger's in a newspaper/magazine/internet.
You read it and you are surprised, because it is all about you.
You search for more information on Internet, and it almost all fits you.
You become obsessed with Asperger's.
You go to wrongplanet, and read the topics. There are questions, that you have been trying to answer all your life. And most people here tell about themselves, and this is EXACTLY how you feel.
You were never able to fin in, anywhere. And you think, you FINALLY found people like you.
You think you're an aspie. But you don't have a diagnosis. You can't be sure, if you are or not. If you're not an aspie, that means that you're alone in the world, and you can't fit in anywhere. This thought bothers you, you have to find out if you're an aspie or not.
You go to the doctor. You tell him/her all about yourself, all your aspie traits, sure you don't use the word "aspergers". He/she examines you. And he/she says:
- You have mild form of depression/anxiety/psychological problems (something that can be cured or smth that you can overcome, and isn't a part of you).
And doctor doesn't mention Aspergers.
Thats all.
You're not an aspie anymore. And your obsessions doesn't make sense anymore.
How would you feel? What would you think? What would you do?
That was exactly what happened to me. Yesterday I had my first contact with my Psychiatrist. Her words were: "A person who has Asperger's Syndrome have no idea that she/he has it. It's not possible for them to be aware of it." And then she said: "Looking at you, apparently, I don't see any sign of SA." That was our first contact and that's how she Justified to me that I could not have SA!
I feel really frustrated and lost!