sunshower wrote:
Another idea I wanted to bring up is that possibly all this NT style heirachy/invisible social rules (will go into specifics here next paragraph), etc, that you seem to be seeing, could be coming from aspies who (after a lifetime of being taught to imitate NT's, and had rote learning, and social skills learning, shoved down their throats from all those around them) are acting the way they have been brought up to act, in an imitative NT fashion.
i think that is possibly true, but i can not see it myself because i was never interested in the rules.
i can not understand why someone would want to live in a way where they can not identify with the rules.
i learned after much time what people like. girls like flowers and men like tools.
i do not understand why girls like flowers or men like tools, but i learned it by rote.
i do not care for the reasons behind what NT's believe they need in a social sense, and i am not inclined to try to imitate them to get into their crowd. that is because i do not identify with their reasons.
i have watched tv and learned how people magically feel stuff, but i really do not feel it myself so i am not drawn to it.
i do not want to imitate nt's because that would leave me hollow and empty.
i want to see simple people's thoughts and talk to them, and not join in an NT parade.
i was not forced to behave in any way when i was a child. my parents did not really care that i was always by myself somewhere.
i was never thrust into social situations because everyone knew it was futile to talk to me.
so i grew into a very strange neural design based upon my original flaw, and i still have no real understanding of emotionally charged statements, so i do not post to threads that are emotional.
sunshower wrote:
I have been thoroughly brainwashed my entire life that the NT style social communication is the only correct form of communication
i do not care much if i can not communicate what i see. i care much more about what i see rather than how to talk about it.
NT rules of communication are "thought editing and modification procedures" that mystify me.
the quality of my thought is not improved by an ability to communicate it.
but i like to talk in threads where there are thoughful people who i know are not condemned to the "rules"
sorry i am not clear headed tonight as i had a hard day and feel neurally stripped.
19 Jan 2009, 4:47 am
