This frustrates me to no end

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I pick up academic knowledge easily, particularly if it is related to my obsession.

Knowledge and skills required for daily living/dealing with people are a different matter; I take in little bits of information which I first have to make an effort to remember; then my brain doesn't naturally integrate and apply those bits of information, so if I need to figure out something, I have to go through the difficult process of calling up all sorts of bits of information, figuring out if they're relevant to whatever situation I'm facing, and then work out how to apply them. If the situation I'm facing is not almost exactly the same as one I've faced in the past, it adds another level of difficulty.

Living takes a lot of thought for me.

A quiet spot inside me is laughing. I hear you brother.

Seems I took the Apsie quirk of being all but unable to learn by verbal/active demonstration. I recall a stint I had working blue collar at a protein factory. Supervior wanted to lift a very large drum of liquid. Large, plastic 'square' encapsulated liquid. I'd guess it was at least 300 gallons.

Anyhow, with a large forklift he attempted to show me how to create a 'loop' with free chain to hook onto the forks. I could demonstrate it now, I think. But it was as if he were speaking foreign to me then. I recall him becoming frustrated and finally all but showing I was an idiot for not grasping so simple a concept.

Just didn't compute. So simple in reality. Just didn't compute.

Well, I learn my general knowledge (i.e. not life lessons) when I go on learning binges. A subject will interest me temporarily due to an article or documentary, and I will read about it on the internet for one or two hours. Then, I know a fair deal about that subject. Do it enough and you get what others would call smart.

When it comes to instruction on a physical task, that's different. They can explain all they want and I'll nod and understand it completely...Then when I have to do it, I'll be all "Okay...so how do you do this?". I've got to make a pathetic attempt by myself before I start learning, and then on the second or third try I get something that's truly good.

Thats why I have been laid off since October 2009. I worked at a machine shop for 9 years as a Metal Finisher/Polisher (Removed knicks and dents from metal surfaces). They were getting fewer and fewer jobs where I would be needed as a finisher. They decided to teach me to operate and maintain cnc lathes. I could run the machines no problem but I would become nervous or jerky when the machine made loud noises. I would check and double everytime I loaded and unloaded the machines it seemed I was getting slower and stranger each operation. I could not teach myself to ignore the loud noises or stop double checking parts before they are machined. Thats how I got the nickname the Dope and RainDan. They called me rainDan because they never seen someone polish metal as good as me which they say is a hard task and fail at an easy task like operating a machine.

This July I going for training to be a medical biller. I took this job traing course because I am hoping if I find a job I hope they stick me in a cubicle in some office where I will not have to interact with people.

I have learning disabilities so I am expecting A nightmare durring taking the course since the teacher most likely does not have experience teaching the learning disables and my aspergers will keep me from asking for help.