Kiseki wrote:
I find this often happens to me. I wonder about their true inentions and what they want me to do. Just now one of my students- a lovely lady I always have good conversations with- asked me to have a drink with her sometime. I said yes and gave her my email. She mailed me and now I'm freaking out! I really don't understand why. She's a very nice lady.
I'm like that too. Like, when somewhat distant cousins *suddenly* want to come over, my first reaction is "WHY??????". It floors me. I am the type of person who either wants to be loved or hated and cannot understand why people who act like they don't want to be near me suddenly want to visit. If someone is very obvious about wanting to be around me, go places with me, is very supportive and positive, I don't have those feelings about them, but if it's someone who thinks I am "weird", I wonder why they want to have anything at all to do with me and begin questioning their motives.
It's not that I don't want friends. I just want friends who want to be friends 100%, meaning they are supportive, loving, nice, all the time, and if they are annoyed about something, they can tell me.
Most of the friends I attract are the type that will go places with me, hang out, and then talk about me visciously when I am not around, try to get people they are talking to not to like me for some reason. That kind of stuff drives me crazy.