Do you feel dead inside?

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i've felt the same way after i graduation from college a few weeks ago. i just feel like i'm not really alive anymore. i feel like i've done all i can and i can't do any more. i was even suicidal for the day after my graduation.

Exact.

Maybe your still looking for the enjoyment that you've been told you should find.
You won't find that... because those are from NT's. Those are the ways NT's enjoy themselves.
You have to find your own. Whether it's in life, or it's in love, it doesn't matter. You will, if you look, find ways to find pleasure. But there is one other issue, and I don't think i really hammered it right in the first post.

You need to let go of all the things society tells you you should want... you won't find them.

You then need to look at your life, and seek out the things that YOU want. Only you can know what you want, because you are different. I wish I could answer the question for you too, but I'm still looking myself. Finding ways to achieve things I want, that don't cause me to lose it. I need a balance, and that's about all I can say for sure.

As long as you hold onto what you've been told you want.... I don't want to say you've set your expectations too high, I think it's better to say instead that you've set them in the wrong directions. And it's not a higher/lower thing.. it's a left vs right, one's as valid as the other, but it's totally different.

Edit: I'll add a mathematical analogy to that last paragraph...
NT's measure their pleasure on the x-axis, we as Aspies measure ours on the y-axis. (Though some of us it might be the imaginary (unreal/complex numbers) axis, or the time axis.)

Last edited by Exclavius on 06 Jul 2010, 4:59 pm, edited 1 time in total.

I feel quite alive, inside and out.

Me too.

I've never really thought about that feeling as being 'dead inside', but I do know what you're talking about. I feel emotions and can relate to others, but more often then not I feel like I'm just going through the motions.

No, thank god. I used to, when I was depressed. I went to camp for two weeks, and the depression was lifted. And wow. I feel like I can't wait to take over the world (like that will happen. Or maybe I'm bipolar )

The best I can describe it is like, that I...just exist?

I do sometimes.

That's a perfect way to describe it.

Do you feel dead inside?

Yes, when overwhelmed by things or if expectations of me are too high.

Fortunately this is not a 100% type of experience. I actually am capable of a few things.

Oh, and another thing that seems to cause the emptiness is when I desperately want to help, but can't.

sometimes

Sometimes yes. Sometimes no. But I always look dead.

Then there's that funky odor....

Both a dead feeling and an abstract null-identity philosophical component as well. Attwood speculated that this dead/null feeling would develop as a result of the impairment in Theory of Mind.

I feel so much different now recognizing that my emotional range of response gauge is limited due to my traits. I feel emotion, but only certain ones in response to music / film, I don't sense these emotions happening in others and rarely experience them introspectively. Music gives me positive feelings, film paired with music makes sadness happen, and stress or fear causes anger responses that come out of nowhere- that's the only day to day emotional occurrence I have. I go out of my way to balance myself with music. I always enjoy the effect that film has on me. Even happy things in them will create the physiological sadness reactions.

I've very much struggled with the combination of the abstract sense of self (null identity/dead inside) and the lack of range of feelings. Right now I think I have a better adjustment to it than ever now that I'm aware of the pattern.

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I do not feel dead inside. I feel jaded. There is nothing really new.

On the plus side, I am not prone to panic. On the down side, I do tend to think of most NTs the way most NTs think of the severely bipolar.

There are times that I feel jaded, on the inside and than there are other times, that I feel completely alive. I'm going through a period, where I'm feeling jaded on the inside, and everything is a constant struggle to get done. I know that I've got to keep on plugging at my chores, and keep up my social appearances. I know that I'll get my second burst of energy, in Late September, like last year.