My report from the autism research study

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I suspected that you were probably lying, and I was hoping that you could clarify what was true and what wasn't. Your age seemed like an obvious lie; the rest I was less certain about. It was not my intent to confuse you, but I couldn't think of a polite way to point out that certain parts of your post seemed highly unlikely and other parts only somewhat unlikely.

Ah, so Horus is a figure from mythology. ...I cordially disagree with the occult in all its forms.

You have no clue how hilarious it is that you called my worldview sunny and optimistic. I think you might be the first one to ever say that to me. It would seem I've found someone so depressed that I look sunny by comparison! Though I do find myself more optimistic lately. I mentioned that I recognize in your statements things I thought and then realized were false, or at least similar patterns. It may be that I actually am becoming an optimist. Weird. I'm the one who has to say things like "I'm pretty sure, but not certain, that my best friend would require some sort of incentive if she were to willingly and knowingly harm me."

I've actually found someone more pessimistic than I!!

Ok.....now I KNOW you're seriously trying to screw with my head. There is NO WAY you couldn't have known i'm not 4500 years-old for cripes sake!! !!


Anyway......Horus:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Horus


What this mythological figure meant to the notorious British occultist, Aleister Crowley:

"Aiwass and The Book of the Law: 1904–1906
Main article: The Book of the Law
In 1904, Crowley and his new wife Rose traveled to Egypt using the pseudonym of Prince and Princess Chioa Khan, titles which Crowley claimed had been bestowed upon him by an eastern potentate.[54] During this time, according to Crowley's own account, Rose, who was pregnant, had become somewhat delusional, regularly informing him that "they are waiting for you". It was on 18 March, after Crowley sought the aid of the Egyptian god Thoth, that she actually revealed who the "they" were – the god Horus and his alleged messenger. She then led him to a nearby museum in Cairo where she showed him a 7th century BCE mortuary stele known as the Stele of Ankh-ef-en-Khonsu (it would later come to be revered in Thelema as the "Stele of Revealing"); Crowley was astounded for the exhibit's number was 666, the number of the beast.[55] He took this all to be a sign and on 20 March began invoking the god Horus in his room. It was after this invocation that Rose, or as he now referred to her, Ouarda the Seeress, informed him that "the Equinox of the Gods had come".[56] This referred to a more cosmic version of the regular Golden Dawn ritual of the Equinox, when they changed their initiating officer and password. The Equinox of the Gods supposedly replaces the office's ruling deity Osiris with Horus.

"Had! The manifestation of Nuit.
The unveiling of the company of heaven.
Every man and woman is a star.
Every number is infinite; there is no difference.
Help me, o warrior lord of Thebes, in my unveiling before the Children of men!"

The opening lines of The Book of the Law, as told to Crowley.It was on 8 April that Crowley first heard a voice talking to him and calling itself Aiwass. The nature of Aiwass has never been fully explained. Crowley's disciple and secretary Israel Regardie believes that this voice came from Crowley's subconscious, but opinions among Thelemites differ widely.[57] Aiwass claimed to be a messenger from the god Hoor-Paar-Kraat, meaning Horus as the child of Isis and Osiris. Crowley wrote down everything the voice told him over the course of the next three days, and subsequently titled it Liber AL vel Legis or The Book of the Law.[58] The god's commands explained that a new Aeon for mankind had begun, and that Crowley would serve as its prophet. As a supreme moral law, it declared "do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law", and that people should learn to live in tune with their "True Will".

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aleister_Crowley



I have had a life-long fascination with this enigmatic man even though his behavior and worldviews were often quite reprehensible IMO. In spite of his rather revolting code of ethics and somewhat sociopathic behavior, Crowley WAS incredibly brilliant, larger-than-life and led a very exciting, colorful and adventurous life.






It's ok....I cordially disagree with exoteric Judeo-Christianity (and all orthodox, dogmatic religions in general) in all its forms.




I would like it if would elaborate upon the things in within my statements which are false. Since we lack objective/absolute truth when it comes to the statements in question (and everything... if really we want to get technical and rather ridiculous about the fact that we can't absolutely disprove the existence of the flying spaghetti monster or something), i'd like to know how you can be so sure the statements you are referring to are false.

BTW.....I say things like that about my two best friends as well. Let's just say i'd never trust them (or anyone aside from my immediate family members) if we both had five millions dollars a piece on our persons, guns and were lost in the isolated depths of the amazon or something. I'd constantly worry that, when i'd turn my back or fall asleep, they'd put a bullet in me and take my five million to add to their own. I wouldn't blame them if they wouldn't trust me in this situation either. Now I KNOW I wouldn't shoot them and take their five million, but unless they're mind-readers, how can THEY KNOW that? I'd say the stakes are a bit too high in that situation to base one's very life on trust.






Well....all I can say to that is everything is relative.


An amusing little story about my pessismism though. It hasn't exactly helped me with the opposite sex, but I really don't care about that too much.

I was in Cancun with my father in 1987. I was eighteen years-old and I went off to some bar (Senor Frog's....to be exact) by myself where people my age hung out. The drinking age in Cancun is like two or something, so it's no problem for 18 y/o's to get into bars there (that may have changed since the last time I was there....idk). Anyway.....I was sitting at a table by myself having a drink and three of the most beautiful girls (IMO....check my "Is there something unusual about my taste in women?" thread in the adult forum to get an idea of the kind of women I find physically attractive) i'd ever seen approached me and asked if they could join me.

After just a few minutes... it was pretty obvious what they had in mind. These girls were roughly the same age as me, probably college students (I remember they were from Texas) and it seemed like they found me rather attractive and wanted me to go back to their hotel room with them. People get pretty crazy in Cancun and many go there to sow their wild oats.

Therefore, stuff like this is hardly unusual there even for many supposedly "good" and virginal girls and guys. Heck.....I just went there to scuba dive with my father and engage in other outdoor activities which we both have a passion for. Still....my libido was thrown into high gear after I witnessed the goings-on in the so-called "Mayan Riviera".

Well.....after about 1/2 hour's worth (or even less...mabye 20 minutes) of conversation, I completely and unwittingly alienated them with my "negativity". The one girl said, "you are the most negative person i've ever met in my life" and they all just got up and walked away. I don't even remember what I was talking about which was so negative, but I just think alot of it is due to my rather austere, unsmiling and often angry-looking demeanor.

I didn't even get upset about the whole thing really.....I just found the experience rather confusing and even...funny. It was strangely rewarding too in ways I can't possibly explain now. What can I say? I'm a very eccentric sort of fellow and it's little wonder i've been dx-ed with the "odd/eccentric" personality disorders known as schizotypal and schizoid.

Anyway....similar things have happened to me with women countless times. I probably could've been with hundreds of perfectly nice, intelligent and beautiful women in my life if I didn't alienate almost all of them with my "negativity" and/or AS/NVLD-related social deficits......lol.


Thankfully though....this is one thing which has never been important to me in any significant sense. If a lack of sexual/romantic relationships were my only problem, i'd be the happiest and most optimistic person in the whole world.

It's not important to me either. NTs are weird. I suspect this may be part of the reason why they manage so consistently to outbreed us.

I outright said I thought your age was a lie, so I dunno why you're acting like I said I didn't. But I couldn't figure out why that number or why the other information, and which was true if any. Not trying to screw with you, just cautious about making assumptions.

Well, I've gotten lines like that from my own mother, though not recently. Including at least once when I was trying to make a joke, so...

I don't think my best friend would kill me in such a situation, nor would she expect me to kill her. One of my other friends might (I don't trust her enough to pass any judgment), but I think another wouldn't dare pull the trigger because the noise would be too much. Plus, I don't know why anyone would be motivated to kill their comrade in such a situation; another person would be more valuable than money in the middle of nowhere.

I'm not sure what precisely it is. Everything you say clicks with the sorts of things I was thinking, but for some reason I don't have any specific examples... how odd.