Having a conversation

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For me, conversation depends a lot on the other party. With some people, it's pretty easy. With others it's really hard.

When it is bad, it's bad. I just have no idea what to say, and can't do more than short answers to questions.

When it is good, it's still a bit of a struggle, because I have to examine everything that I say to make sure that I don't accidentally say something offensive.

All it takes is a bit of confidence when having a conversation with people (I'm not criticising anyone, because this applies to me too). I've figured that the less you care what other people think, the more confidence you have in yourself to be able to speak up. I'm not saying NTs don't care what other people think of them, because they do care, but then they think of themselves too, not just what other people think. But me, I think too much of what other people think so much, that I give myself up just to impress other people - even though the results show that not speaking up properly in a conversation does not socially impress people, because it shows my lack of confidence well.
The problem with me is, I don't express the good, but express the bad. For example, if I am having a conversation with somebody, and I go to ask the right question at the right time, I tend to hold back and think, ''oh, I better not, they might think I'm stupid or something'', even though that asking the question would rightfully be the right thing to do in the conversation. But then I think nothing of saying something what will make them think I'm stupid. Then I regret saying it afterwards.

This is why I don't like mixing with teenage girls, or girls around my age, unless they're more mature and starting to get to the age where they look upon you as ''quite odd, but very friendly and descent'', instead of ''weird and not worth knowing''.
I think teenage girls are the worst people to assiciate with, especially around age 13 to 17. I'm not saying all, but in general most teenage girls are very hard on how you react and communicate, and wht you like and dislike. They're even hard on eahother. My cousin, who is 14, is NT and is really popular at school, but then suddenly most of her friends suddenly started being bitchy towards her, all because she was best friends with a few girls in the year below her. SOME teenage girls can be pretty weird sometimes, and can leap right onto you at any little thing when you're a teenager, whether you're NT or Aspie or anything else.

Anyway, went slightly off-topic there, but never mind. I've given my point across now, and don't take whatever I say really personally - mostly when I say things like ''most middle-aged people like you for who you are and don't always judge your slightly odd ways'', because you are always going to be somebody what misunderstands and would rather look for Perfect Pete (even though nobody's perfect, but it's just a saying), but I'm just saying the majority of people do accept you as a friend or aquatence because they look more for the niceness in you than anything else. Since I started work, I found I fit in much better than I ever did at school, and despite my odd ways, people like me. I've even got asked out by a NT man at work, and he really likes me. And even if people there do talk about me behind my back, (which they probably do), they are still pleasant and friendly to me when I see them.....OK, I went slightly off-topic again! I'd better shush now, getting a bit over excited