how often do you think about your diagnoses/diagnosis's ?

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I don't consciously think about it all of the time, but the realization of it, and my ADD, is under the surface ALL of the time.

In other words, I am constantly recognizing things I do or think as "part of my AS, or part of my ADD, or both." Sometimes I can tell with certain situations when conflicts between the two are occurring. For example, one way of dealing with ADD is to develop new habits. Developing new habits, from my AS perspective, is like changing who I am, and that's hard to accept because of my AS. But changing habits will make my life easier, which appeals to my AS sense of "what's in it for me?"

It's almost funny how they can conflict and work together at the same time.

But yeah. Even though I don't consciously think about it all the time, the awareness is ALWAYS there.

Mostly before i fell asleep. During the day, i (try to) keep my mind off it.

Quite often...it is a special interest for me right now too

I introspect with every thing I do now, but not necessarily in terms of AS. I just like to compare how I think vs. how other people think, and to see the similarities/differences between mine and any other person's mode of interacting, as well as seeing how the behaviour of people on the spectrum as a group differs from non-autistic people as a group (as well as the similarities). Of course, it's never going to be absolute, but I like to pick up any patterns I can find. While autism/AS is also my special interest, I constantly question and redefine my perception of the label, as well as my understanding of how other people see this label. Borderline cases particularly fascinate me because they are the crux of this constant need of mine to question the definition. I think it matters to me so much because whenever I speak out at autism talks, conferences, or just advocate in small groups, I want to make sure that I explain myself clearly, make sure that everything I say is fair and correct, and make sure that I hit upon all the crucial points. Of course, that depends on the individual, so then I start looking at the specific individuals in question, and what they would need to know about autism...

I think about my diagnosis for most of the day, everyday. If I happen to forget about it for a time, something will inevitably come up that will remind me that yes, I am still autistic, because there isn't a single part of me that isn't affected by it in some way.

I think about it every day, but far from every minute of the day. I think about it in both positive, negative and neutral ways. It can be anything from just reminding myself that other people don't understand how I function and that they function differently than I, to cursing my sensory issues, to feeling sad about my social isolation and not being given a chance socially, to thinking of positive ways to use my aspie traits for good things, to thinking "I'm glad I'm not like that" when neurotypicals display strange behaviors or attitudes.

I also try to educate some people about it, for example by answering questions about it online or correcting misunderstandings and misconceptions that I bump into, so in relation to that I think about it too. In a way it's a part of an obsessive interest that I have.

Quite a lot. Coming on WP of course reminds me... and then there are all the little things I do, think and perceive that aren't normal.

But I think of it as a neutral or slightly good thing. I think NT brains are a wonderful thing, but I feel the same way about mine. I'm happy with it.