An illustrated book of an autistic person

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It seems extremely well put together. Although I only read the clothing section and we were pretty different (I *have* to match!) There were also a lot of similarities. I think this would be a good coffee table-ish type book.

I'm still reading and I am going to sign the petition (the site is loading slowly for me), but I wanted to say:

The day blindness is the first time I've seen someone else succintly show the problem I have with daylight. There's a lot more in there, but I picked that one out because it's the one I find myself explaining most often.

Thanks, all!
Having other Aspies sign is particularly special to me, because like a lot of you, I've wondered if I really am an Aspie. I was afraid you guys would would cry 'fake', like what happened to that woman who wrote the "Mutant Message from Down Under" book.
Although I think she knew she was faking.

Bump.
Usually I'm not such a dick, I swear!
It's just I made my OCD promise to back off if I could get 100 signatures and I'm two away right now.

That's a very interesting book!

I am reading the part about clothing. Like you, I HATE wearing underwear! I just can't stand elastic digging into me so I currently wear no knickers at all (which I can get away with, because I wear long skirts all the time) but I haven't told anyone (by "anyone" I mean my mother) that I have stopped wearing knickers, because she would say it was shocking.

I will need to look into those silk boxers you mention!

Edit: just wanted to say that before you send it to a publisher you should get someone to check the spelling for you. There are mistakes such as "clothes I where" instead of "clothes I wear" and I think most publishers would not even consider work that hasn't been properly edited for mistakes.

Beautiful beautiful! I'll have to look at more later when my eyes aren't so tired. Really, that thing looks completely amazing.

It's a very interesting read! I only read very little of it so far and I soon have to go to buy groceries, but I love how you express how unique and different you are without being arrogant and intimidating.
*goes back to reading it*

Edit: Here I now write of my process in reading your book, and am updating it as I progress;

I am now done with reading up to "The Eternal Gray" and I've found myself relating to the way you observe your thought processes and weave theories from them. Unfortunately, an utterly self-hating part of me has taken over a large portion of my thoughts and interactions and due to it I have lost my confidence in any true ability to correctly decipher my own mind's workings...and everything else in the world. I hope that someday I will defeat her, but I have only despair that I never will. "The Abandonment" quite resembles a quest I took upon when I was 15 and ultimately failed, resulting in this self-hating entity's birth.
I must say I envy the peculiarity and intensity of your life, even though I know it's folly to - no doubt it has been a distressing experience.

Read up to the System Crash now...and thank you for putting in the Second Edition Notes in the System Crash chapter. The glimpse of less sophisticated thought and wording made you seem less perfect and more human...making me feel a little less inferior to you

Thank you, thank you, thank you for writing this book! You have caused me to feel an unidentified emotion right now because of it, and emotions for me are rare and treasured. Thank you.

I noticed an error - "as I know it now. When I graduated, it rested in the back of my mind that I was about to embark on a new experiment; to see if something like me to exist in the working world". Unless I'm just not understanding the sentence. Did you mean "To see if something like me could exist in the working world"?

Damn. I am so envious of your synesthesia
"You know how sometimes you get a song stuck in your head? Not an annoying song that aggravates you, just any song that just plays in the background? Usually you don't even notice unless you turn special attention to it. Having a song stuck is different than conjuring one up. It's different from imagining because the song is there unbidden and will remain there even if you pay it no attention. In the same affect you can't seem to wilfully get rid of it either. If you were to listen to real music the stuck song wouldn't override it, but when the music stops or you focus, you could" I recently told my mother about how there's always a song playing in my head in the backround...and you describe it perfectly. She thought it was strange and worrysome, but seems it's common after all.

Another mistake, in "Overloaded" - "I actually fair pretty well by myself" it should be "fare"

At "Energy to Dimensional Wall Ratio". I do so envy the vividness, the intensity of your existence. Colours seem to have faded for me and now the flavour of my life comes from fantasy worlds...where back many years ago I was truly observing things, experiencing things, everything so much more vividly...and now I have this entity constantly disrupting my thoughts, and making impossible the kind of introspection + theorizing about the existence that once was the salt of my life. I even contemplated even things such as that perhaps it's possible to alter the world with one's mind (=magic) and I would do my best to attempt to do that when I would at last be independent.
Truly a shame, I miss that time so much, even if I was half mad.
I wonder if life is so gray because of the medication I'm taking, because of this malign entity, or something else entirely? I am not depressed, for I feel nothing. If I am to ever live on my own, I plan to experiment...to try to find out if there's a way back into a more vivid world.

At "Dreamstate". I just realized that the "atmosphere" or "feel" (I can't describe it any better) of the whole book is very, very reminiscent of that of the movie Donnie Darko. Interesting. It's one of my favorites, too - largely because of the very intense atmosphere. It's a shame you wouldn't be able to watch it. I've got to put on the film score now....damn that movie was so good. I have got to watch it again someday...

"There's the feeling of an intense pressure, a weight that makes it impossible to move or speak. Panic streaks across as you feel your body struggle and die until the blackness takes your mind as well." Once in a dream my death was like that too. "There are a handful of recognizable places that my dreams keep going back to, places I have never actually seen but feel some ancient connection to." Yes, my dreams gravitate to happen in the same places too, most of which don't even exist for real...I think so at least. Sometimes I have in real life come upon a place I've never been before for real, but - I have been in a dream! The atmosphere there then is oppressive and I feel some sort of dread. It's strange. This same feel is associated with nearly all the real places that have been in my dreams, too - I have often dreamt I'm in the area where my grandmother lives, and the oppressive atmosphere is always present when I visit there for real. Most of my dreams involve me being somehow in some part of the dreamworld, unaware of how I got there and then trying to desperately find my way home with little success. The worst of my dreams usually involve horrible deforming diseases spreading across the world or some sort of huge nuclear accident or war...as in, apocalyptic dreams, but not all my dreams happen during endtimes.

I believe I found one more mistake - "Why isn't it underwater or filled winged monkeys?" I might be wrong, but did you mean "filled with winged monkeys"?

"dreams that have a line of continuum though. All the dreams seem to remember each other from one night to the next, forming their own mysterious back stories." My dreams are often connected to each other, but not always. Unfortunately memories of my dreams fade away when I wake up, as they probably do with most people. Sometimes bits and pieces stick around, though. It's such a shame because sometimes I have dreams that feel like lifetimes, and all of them are just...lost. I wish there was some sort of machine to record and revisit dreams

On 'psychic dreams' - my mother has also seen some.

At the clothes section - I really like your clothes.

On page 164 - A good and working analogy - the human brain / a computer. It is easy to understand and a very good way to make sense of your mind.

Is this a mistake? "Without thinking I envision the noodle thinking in it's little pasta mind about how it will never fulfill it's potential and so one." Perhaps it's some saying I don't know or something? Or perhaps you meant "and so on"?

Also "Persuasion is, to me, can be a form of lying." Should it perhaps be either "Persuasion is, to me, a form of lying" or "Persuasion can be a form of lying"?
"By and large is a philosophical religion like Buddhism, but there are eccentric aspects as well." should probably have "By and large it is a..."

Whoa. I just began reading the part on Gods, Goddesses, and Planeswalkers and how mortals can ascend and become gods...that is something that was very central to my belief system before my downfall...My grand goal was to become Perfect and eventually ascend beyond this world to create my own universes...That part has nothing to do with your beliefs, though ...just continued reading and I was wrong - it kind of does.

"and because you are it’s child" should be "its" instead of "it's".

Reading about Realspace now.
"Within a couple of months, Shodan had excepted Kidman, or as she called her, Delphi, as her ‘most perfect creation’ and used her as an avatar." ...did you mean "accepted"?
"her body did not always obey the laws hyperphysics" ...should it be "laws of hyperphysics"? Or "laws' hyperphysics"?

I will continue reading on later.

Any update Anie? =D

Last word was 2 to go...

Best wishes, hope things are well, and once again, what a wonderful book you created