Do you know yourself?

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If knowing oneself means to know what one is capable of, mentally, physically and socially, then yes, I know myself very well. I know my skills, and I know where my limits are. If knowing oneself is defined as knowing what defines your personality, your life and your mind, then no, I don't know who I am. I am too busy not to draw too much attention to myself by pretending to be normal. If I were to make a guess, I would say I have no personality at all. If it is true that a human is just a product of its environment, than this would hold true for me than for anyone else I know. I try to maneuvre myself through life with as much dignity and humbleness as possible. If someone who impresses me has a personality trait that I think defines him the most and I think would suit me and my way of life, then I adapt to it. Most of the time, it works pretty well, but if it was possible, I would have no strong feelings or experessions in any direction, I'd just be.

I'm aware of the many psychometric properties that I possess as measured by psychometric tests, and I'm aware of my limits and many of my capabilities. I'm also aware of how I'll typically approach certain situations and know how I usually affect said situations (Hint, if it involves people, usually not for the better, lol.). But, as far as my "real personality" within the everyday social context, I'm still pretty clueless.

That's how I feel.
I think that I know myself if I am all alone.
But in any social context, I don't seem to be sure of anything, and any personality that I identify with never seems to come across correctly.

I remember this one time I went to a concert and I was waiting in line to get in. The guy in front of me turned around and (obviously drunk) said something to me to the effect of "wut'z up doood..." I was frozen with anxiety and pretended not to hear. He persisted to the point of frustration. When I still refused to acknowledge him, he remarked with disgust, very loudly: "this guy's got no personality!!"

Was he onto something there? hmmmm.....