Naivité

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Hmmm I can be extremely trusting and naive in social situations, many people have told me so. I do admit I am not very socially smart. They keep telling me how "gullible" I am and I am confused and deny it, for a few reasons:

1. I am never surprised by a sudden change or revelation about a person who I have not known longer than a few months, sometimes even years or so (eg finding out they are a criminal or a manipulative person). Even though I never really change that much, I have grown up around people that continuously do. Therefore my "belief and trust" in some people is... not 100 percent set that way. I find this part hard to explain because I have not thought about explaining it for long.

2. Half of the time my "trust" Is just me acting. I know what people see as friendly and trusting person, and because I like to care about people, I give this to them. For example someone might start talking about an unusual thing about themselves. Perhaps exaggerated or entirely untrue. I still give them a credulous smile and expression and listen, no matter if I believe it to be true or not. I reckon some people actually believe the things they say. A few times people have led me on to believe they believe something that they actually don't, so I continue on with the believing act, and then they make fun of me for believing something so stupid, when I never actually did... Therefore when people tell me something I have learned to be wild/unusual, I become confused at what kind of expression to put on and will kind of stare at them with a blank or analytical face as I try hard to read if their face is a lying one or not, which they often see on me as a "you don't believe me" face. >.< The problem is, as I have learned to put into words after reading about aspergers, is I feel conversations should be about information exchange. I hate this whole idea that I have to be emotionally involved somehow. Especially since I am misread nearly all of the time.
3. People say you shouldn't talk to strangers. I don't go out of my way to, but people refuse to acknowledge that the actual participation in a conversation with someone you have never met before is not a problem. Though I've never met anyone shady IRL, I tend to avoid going places with them, just because I have learned this: If a stranger tries to convince you to make the assumption that you in some way owe him something (eg playing on either guilt or your desire to try and fit in to the norm), to try and glean information from you, or take you somewhere, THIS situation is one where you should refuse to do or go anywhere with said person.

Think of it like this: Even if a stranger is totally innocent and friendly, going with them only encourages them to be trusting of people THEY'VE never met, either. Just as you may be wary of them, they might be wary of you. Or at least they should be. Just because you know you are a person with good intentions, and even if you know they are too, most people aren't good at making those kinds of judgment calls, from my experience. Therefore you should do your best to help people be aware of this, and keep yourself aware of it too.

Being paranoid around strangers is good! But you can still be as nice to them and have wonderful conversations as you want.

Does that make any sense? Someone correct me if I am wrong... or ask for clarification if I have said something too vaguely.

That's exactly how I feel, too.

Before I read about AS, I had all these ideas and gut feelings about myself that I could never express in words, because, although I felt them, I didn't understand them. Now suddenly I understand myself. There is a sudden outpouring of explanations coming out from inside of me, and I want to explain everything, both to myself and to others.

To people like my mother, it seems odd that I am constantly trying to explain some new thing about myself that I'd never mentioned until now. She often looks puzzled and says: "are you sure you are like that? You've never mentioned it before." To people who cannot see inside my mind, it might look as though I just read a list of symptoms and am now faking them. But yes, I am like that. It's just that, until now, I could never put myself into words.

Sometime people can be nice to a fault. When your niceness ends up shooting you in the foot, it might be time to challenge that thinking. This girl is toxic and it would be in your best interest to simply sever all ties to her. Even the smallest response may seem like permission for her to continue. You don't have to be mean about it, I wouldn't even suggest confrontation. Simply leaving her posts unanswered might be the best strategy. She can be as mad as she likes and she may say awful things but most rational people will realize that she's off her rocker.

And I would fill your sister in on the details about this girl as they pertain to you. Make sure she has your side of the story in case this nutjob does try to slander you. Your sister unwittingly got you into this situation, it would be fair to ask her to have your back in regards to this friend of hers.