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I have similar problems. Since October last year I notice these staring fits and absend mindedness, a lot more than before. Like today I have been working, work is fine, but I feel zoned out all the time. At the end of the day, I remember some phonecalls from the morning and they feel like something unreal, like my day is spend inside a dream. At several moments I notice it weakens and I seem to wake up, but then it comes back again. This changes from day to day.

In the past my doctor said I was suffering from depersonalisation/derealisation. This also fits the profile, although it seems like it is getting worse lately. They say it is related to stresslevels, so relaxation should make it better, but so far I do not notice any improvement. I can relax, no problem, watching some TV, some comedy or something else. But at the same time, there is still this spaced out feeling, like I am still asleep.

For now I can only advice to ignore it as much as possible, to avoid opsessing about it.

This might help, too. I've been migrating towards something like this - doing tasks in smaller chunks then doing something to relieve stress build up. It seems to help prevent cognitive shut down (I shut down rather than melt down)

The real problem is actually switching out to another task once I've hit warp 10.. A timer might 'remind' me to switch, but my mind may just ignore it. Almost like my mind has physical momentum. It's almost like nothing can penetrate or redirect it. It's a form of hyper focus that resists any attempts to push it aside. The absolute best thing is vigorous exercise, but if I sprint (as in gassers or suicides - full on make your quads burn sprint drills) through the halls at work I would be admitted to a psych ward. Well ... maybe not the psych ward, but it wouldn't be too well received.

I suppose the good thing is that I've recognized this dynamic. I used to think I was just loony. Now I recognize it as a state of mind related to ASDs and not even necessarily a bad thing. I'm thinking I should be able to work out something that keeps it in check.