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What I'm assuming you're using to self medicate is illegal in most places.

Hint: This is the variety you don't grow in your lawn.

quite correct.
although currently I am off medication due to prosecution.

For me it was very easy to lay the so called dangerous drug aside. (the only adverse effect was one night of bad sleep and slight sweating)

However, now I have to concentrate very hard on pretending to be normal. It is extremely tiring and I have to fight the onset of depressions and aggressions with all of my concentration. With this "onset" I mean the frustration over other people's incompetence, stupidity, arrogance, self-righteousness, short-sightedness, intolerance, inconsideration and so on. It is much more difficult to ignore this now. And that's me working with other scientists. God forbid I had to work somplace else!

I also have to force my mouth shut all the time, to ignore their stupid mistakes, to not dip their nose into their own sh*t so they can see how incompetent they are.

During my diagnosis I had to take an IQ test. Unsurprisingly, I am far outside the usual bounds of the test. While I am medicated, I can use this additional capacities for my own pleasure (writing books, researching into neural network and neurology stuff and so on). Now I need every single IQ point to not get into trouble. When I got home yesterday, I went straight to bed, just to awake to the sound of my alarm, warning me from another day of bloodcurdling futility at work.

I should mention that I get off the medication for a couple of days on a regular basis, just to prove to myself that I am not addicted. But usually I do this when I don't have to meet stupid people.

Maybe I should also mention that I usually get my day's work done within about 5 to 10 minutes. The rest of the time I pretend to be busy, otherwise they will load a whole pile of futile "occupational therapy" stuff on me (work that doesn't need to be done at all), they cannot bear it if someone is that much faster and better.

And even though I actually give less than 10% of my capacity at work, I often still get compliments on how good my work is and how fast I finished. This is usually a warning signal for me that I was too fast.