Have you ever self harmed?

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Even at my most depressed, I never did any harm to myself.

When I was younger, I would bang my firsts on my head until I felt dizzy. I still do this, but the stress requirement for it to happen is far higher as I have learned to resist it. Sometimes, it suffices to simply tap my fists against my head gently.

I do this because when I do something stupid, I hate myself for it so very much that I want to hurt myself. I had a really bad one a while ago, but overall it's been much better.

I skin pick quite badly, but I think of this as more of a stim/habit like nailbiting rather than a deliberate self-harming thing.

I feel the urge to do this often, but mostly don't do it unless I'm alone (sometimes it takes a lot of effort not to). I guess if I punish myself for doing something, I feel less guilty and bad. Although I never really hurt myself.

I've pulled many strands of my hair out on occasion. Does anyone else pull hair out?

There is a name for it: and it kind of helps me relax, and calm down. Like.. a natural high.

Anyone else ever experience this?

Biting and picking at the skin around my fingernails produces a similar effect. It's called Dermatillomania, and according to Wikipedia:

"Sufferers of dermatillomania find skin picking to be stress relieving or gratifying rather than painful. (...) Sufferers of the condition may enter a trance-like state, only to be confronted with the results afterward."

That's pretty accurate for me, only I don't agree with the "sufferers" part.

Oh, and the hair thing is called Trichotillomania.

Unfortunately yes. I have stupidly attempted suicide on occasion this is usually a reaction to an argument with a person or misunderstanding pent up anger/guilt makes me want to escape. I do loathe confrontation, I have better ways of coping with stress now! I think all kinds of things could come under self harm/abuse all NT's have em too but they call them "vice": nail biting, binge drinking, chain smoking, recreational drug taking, over eating, plastic surgery...perhaps.

Only bluffed suicide on a few occasions. One was with an overdose of Stelazine talbets, I knew they were problably non-lethal, but boy they made me hyperactive and extremely uncomfortable for a few days and I did not get any sleep at all

Ah yes, same here. Misunderstanding. Worst thing there is

EDIT: Sorry, can't leave it. Had to remove.

Last edited by DirtDawg on 23 Sep 2006, 11:50 pm, edited 2 times in total.

Im prity similar to you, cept I did it with a crushes soda can and I cut on my arms and legs , and If anyone wanted to know what happend I would say I was walking thru a thorn bush and fell in. I would do it in school sometimes and ones my 2 best freinds saw me walk in the bathroom with the snaple can, and the ran oner asap yelld at me to get back in the cafateria and threw away the can for me. I started smoking soon after that(and sometimes still do) so I woulden't cut anymore. I now have some new freind who also usede to cut who I have had very emotional conversations with.

The closest thing to self-harm I've done is accidentally smacking my haed on the side of the door when stamping out a room. Y'know that metal bit that keeps the door closed? No, not the handle, the little bit that goes in and out. Yeah, I accidentally whacked my head on one of those at maximum force as I was exiting a room. Ow!