"Mind Games"

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I've never gone for diagnosis of anything in particular, but I do think I'm ADHD-ish if nothing else.. I rarely commit to a project from start to finish, and my short-term memory in general isn't great. If I take stimulants like caffeine or sugar or other more potent stuff I can focus noticeably better and these issues largely disappear.. but then, isn't that why everyone takes stimulants

If nothing else it seems like this sort of thing indicates a 'daydreamy' and/or more 'metaphoric' mode of thinking than most people apparently exhibit.

I understand conceptually how sexual release is fun in a purely physical/'instinctual' way, and how the courtship/hunting rituals are mentally stimulating, but when I try to imagine the actual act, with all the actual physicality of the whole thing, it truly disgusts me. I'm not sure I can think of anything more repellant.

To put it simply. Yes I do all those sorts of things.

As a kid, sitting in the back seat of the car, i used to imagine the car "jumping" above the gaps in the middle white line of the road. If the line was continuous or i was looking through the side window, the car would jump above an imaginary line my mind drew from a tree, perpendicular to the road. There were always little bumps in the road i used to define a starting point of the jump and then a landing. I realized I was still doing this last summer....

I sometimes imagine Tom and Jerry are leaping about over whatever I'm looking at. I have to really use my imagination for this. I usually do this when the bus is stuck in traffic lights or broken down, and I use a scene, any scene, out of the window to imagine Tom and Jerry. Even on a big empty field I can make up them doing something.

My mind is always working, too. It never stops. I remember most of my dreams, at least for a few minutes or I have remnants of the dreams.
my mind is in several pieces. One part I "can" use, but the other take to much effort and go their own say. Sometimes it plays games, but mostly is in deep thought, figuring out the mysteries of life.

If I really work hard to control my mind and can get it on a subject, it is very powerful. Sometimes I give my mind a question, like a path of evolution of an animal or how much oil is really in the world. A complex question may keep it busy and seemingly none existent for a few weeks. How it can compress 4 billion years in to a week or two amazes me...

I have counted a total of 8 thought trains. Occasionally all parts of my mind are playing a game at the time, each being a different game... That is fun, but I can't function in the real world...

When I was a kid through teenage years, my mind wanted to learn everything about people's minds. I wish I could find something new as interesting...