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I think non specific anxiety happens sometimes to me too. Most of the time it's irrational. Last week, I was feeling really uneasy, but there was no reason. Everything was taken care of. I went for a walk and it seemed to help. Maybe you just have too much energy and it gets channeled as anxiety and restlessness? That would be my guess. Also, try not to give the anxiety any more power than needed. It can really take over your life if you're not careful. I hope you find a solution soon.

Yes, I think alexythimia is present , very much so. I cannot make life decisions of any kind, no solution ever appears better than the other, or at least, the more I poke around for feelings , the less I can identify them. Even with things such as leaving my boyfriend/staying with him, what I feel is so burried and low in intensity that all it translates too is "a bit of adrenalin maybe?" , when I visualize both outcomes. No actual emotion names (such as happiness, sadness, joy, fear etc) come to mind.
So yes, knowing what causes the anxiety is going to be complicated anyway, I don't linger on it too much but it has made me make all overdue phone calls since yesterday, in the hopes that fixing everything that is "not totally right" yet might lower the feeling.
Tonight I feel a bit better, as long as I don't remember that the sun will rise again tomorrow. I'm eating chocolate covered marshmallows so I think that's why...

Someone knocked on my door yesterday, and I had this impending doom feeling too. Like a prey animal freezing in the presence of a predator. I didn't answer the door, but the door-knocking doom was far worse than the phone-ringing doom. I realized that I have always felt this way when someone knocked on my door.

HA! I knew I wasn't alone, I really think it's something all aspies will feel , even if not permanently. It does feel like that, like being a rabbit at the bottom of a hole and seeing the end of a shotgun blocking the entrance or something. I need that CCTV thing, because not knowing who is on the other side (I can't watch without revealing my presence) makes it worse than it could be.
When you don't feel safe inside your own home, what is there to do?? I can't even take a nap in the middle of the day if I wanted to, the guilt and fear of someone finding me like this is too much. I'm going to keep looking for a solution, not only for me but for all of us, dammit. This is too intense.

Ha! I thought I was the only one with this problem. The other day the door rang and instead of answering it, I ran off to another room to hide. I have no reason to want to hide. I have no reason to fear people coming to my house. I have no idea where that feeling comes from. I used to have full blown panic attacks when the phone would ring. I eventually cancelled my land line. Now I only have my mobile phone and only family calls. I have not found a solution to the door. So everyday, I hope no ones knocks on it. =)

Ha! I hide in the bathroom when the phone rings.

I feel a wonderful feeling of relief when the phone stops ringing. I feel especially happy if no message has been left. If a message has been left, I listen to it and delete it immediately.

LOL I used to hide the ringing phone under my couch cushions, because I could never think straight enough to remember I could mute it. Under the cushions, then sit on it and wait for it to stop being scary lol....seriously, that's not very adult.
My dad used to shoosh us kids when the doorbell rang, in the hopes that the person would think noone was home. Not saying this is why I react like this of course, but he was probably an aspie too, and I remember thinking that his attitude was ridiculous. I wasn't affected as a kid. I would have freaked out if it had been some kids my age at the door though but of course that never happened.
I've had bad moments in the past, before I had even heard about asperger's, where I would turn off the lights and stop moving, laying low until I was pretty sure the person had gone.
It's very specific! I don't feel that way when I see someone in their own environment, I'm not terrified by my butcher, or other mothers at school...I think I just can't deal with people standing in front of MY door and expecting me to open it for them. There's no rhyme or reason to it.....
So this generalized anxiety could actually be a phobia of intrusion? or something. "It's not happening NOW, there's noone at my door, but it could happen , any minute now, someone could knock" .
I wonder if it has a name.....

Yes, I don't have a problem with seeing people in their own environments either. It's the intrusion into mine that is scary.

Also, the unknown is scary. When the door or phone rings, it could be anyone. I don't think anyone is after me, but I still fear the unknown aspect of the intrusion. If I expect someone to show up at my door at a certain time, then all is well.

Sometimes, while hiding in the bathroom, I also plug my ears with my fingers when the phone rings.