CocoRock wrote:
I hope this doesn't change the subject too much, but does anyone also have a visual equivalent? I mean, focusing intensely on an object or part of an object for example while talking to a person, or listening to someone, often when emotional intensity (inc anxiety) is high? Then, when remembering the object, do you remember the conversation or comment?
Oh yes! My memory is "picture based". Everything I remember is basically a picture. Even numbers. I have generally problems with remembering things like dates, phone numbers and license plates but if I do I usually remember them as pictures: a picture of the plate, a page in a calendar, a scrap of paper or yellow PostIt with a number on it. My memory is a massive slideshow, both actual events and "my world", i.e. imaginary pictures. I don't remember things in motion or as periods of passing time, but only series of static images.
Although, I think most/many people have image based memory like this. I don't this this is necessarily specific to AS.
Therefore, it's not uncommon to have an image stuck in my head: a car or bike or a person I saw, or a small detail like that cable housing. And yes, often, that is connected with sounds and smells of the moment. If I can bring back the image, I can also bring back what else was happening at the time in that location. Although, interestingly, I don't find that problematic in any way because my head is full of images at any given time, so this is just one of many pictures and for some reason I can sort and manage images in my head much better than sounds, it's basically effortless. Although sometimes it spooks me when an image pops up in my head of something I must have acquired subconsciously because I don't remember looking at it. And it's often not imaginary either. Sometimes I'd go to that location to see if it's really there and it is. It often comes up when someone asks me about something and realize I have a picture of that in my head even though I don't recall seeing it or paying attention to it.
CocoRock wrote:
Taking it back to repeating phrases...I understand the having a busy mind thing. I tend to deprive myself of sleep, waiting until I'm exhausted before I go to bed. To sleep though, I play word games in my mind and I soon drift off. Sometimes I think of a word and try to define it. Sounds boring! Actually, it can be fascinating to think of things in detail that I hadn't thought about before, but most importantly, it occupies my mind and allows me to sleep!
I have to take Klonopin at the end of the day or I most likely won't sleep because of either uncontrollable rushing random thoughts, or semi-voluntary repetition and rumination, going over events, repeating what was said. Although, I only do this inside my head, I never vocalize or even move my lips.
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