blackcat wrote:
I am a waste of everything. I can't do anything right. All I do is cause trouble for my family. I am a moron for ever thinking that I could do ANYTHING that normal people do. I cannot believe that I actually thought I was capable of driving, or working like a normal person, having friends, dating, ANYthing. I am a FAILURE. Why I keep trying is beyond me.
I can't help but get the feeling that you're a failure at meeting other people's
expectations. That probably goes for the majority of people here. I'm betting that there are things you are good at but they aren't valued by those you know. Somehow you have to find a way to take advantage of your strengths and make a life no matter what other people think of the way you're doing it. The hardest part may be to ignore what others think of your way.
I went through a period in my 20's where my family didn't understand my strengths largely because they were pretty esoteric and largely hidden from plain view. It hurt. But I managed to make them work for me. I don't think they understand even today but my life works for me and they accept that.