24 Nov 2011, 4:39 pm
I've had further conversations with my mother and talk about a can of worms 
We got on to the subject of school and initially I would not speak at all, that was because a teacher had told us we were there to learn not speak, I took it literally and would not talk. For that entire first year I wouldn't speak and the other kids would speak for me When I was a little older(around 6) and was now whispering one teacher took my mother aside and suggested taking me to a psychiatrist as I clearly had problems, my mother lost it with her and insisted I was fine. she went to the extreme of recording one of my obsessions at the time which was mimicking people, teachers, film stars, etc, apparently I could get voices down to a tee. My mother took the recording to the head teacher and played it to him, he was gobsmacked that it was the same child.
I seem to have found the source too, I was telling my mother how it's often hereditary and straight away she said she knew there was always something a little odd about my father. His obsessions were as varied as mine are, he would often get an idea into his head and that was it nothing else mattered, most of them of a creative nature. Some of his obsessions were building crates out of matchsticks, making cherub statues(apparently he even managed to sell some), memory improvement (one he got me obsessed with too and we'd spend hours memorising things and repeating them back). He has had almost no friends for most of his life, socially he's awkward like me and would rather avoid social situations.
My mom was really apologetic, she felt like she'd let me down and that had she taken the teacher's advice all those years ago maybe I'd have got some help. So then I spent 30 minutes telling her it was okay and if I had got help maybe I wouldn't be the same person I am now which has it's good and bad points. Can't change the past and like some of you said in this thread it was very different back then regarding mental health / developmental / etc issues. I'm hoping to get an appointment with the doctor tomorrow (they have a silly system in which you have to call up on the day to get an appointment which means you have to call early or miss out) if I don't then hopefully I will Monday and I can get the ball rolling.
