My brain is filled with the sharp-edged clutter of random

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You definitely have good advice here, and I am trying to hold onto the thought that I need earplugs for my next "payday" and hopefully I can find some that'll be helpful while I'm out.

This house is so crowded that I already spend all my time in my bedroom, which isn't much shelter from noise. I don't really have anywhere I can go casually, as I live in a rural area and require transportation. If I had my own, I would probably spend my days in a library or a bookstore or just anywhere to get away, but that's not an option.

Visually, I don't get overstimulated much at home, at least. Not a lot of overly bright labels around.



Yeah, I get the immediate sensory overload too - mostly the noise here isn't quite loud enough to overload me like that, so it becomes a gradual process. Sometimes it is loud enough and I'm done for the next few hours.

I was reminded of this quote. I actually identified with it fairly quickly, because I felt like that nearly every day for a long time:



Except I never invoked any butter or bread-related analogies. But the feeling stretched out, like I'm always under some kind of stress, definitely.

This is all very interesting.
I've often got constant repetitive things in my head, from an annoying memory from years ago to repeating a shape or counting over and over.
When that's not happening it seems to be completely random imagery.
To relax or fall asleep easily I often listen to noise music or anything that is not pop music or music that is easy to predict.
There is a comfort in noise and randomness that really puts me at ease.