Sansomrocks1027 wrote:
I don't know what i'm going to do. This depression is killing me slowly. Iv'e been thinking about being institutionalized lately for it. I just need to get away from people. Myself, I feel pretty neurotypical for the most part, But on the inside, somehwere I know what's wrong with myself in certain areas. I'm alone mainly, The group of people I hung around, I have a feeling they just don't want me there, and i feel like the black sheep around them, and It kills me. My family always picks on me for dumb sh** iv'e done in the past, and all my flaws. I didn't ask to be like this, and it kills me that I am, and that i'll have it for the rest of my life. Who's going to want to have a partner with an ASD? I don't know what i'm going to do when the time comes for true independency. I can't drive for sh**, and I get too nervous on the main roads. How am i supposed to live without getting to point A to point B? My life is a living hell, and I just don't know what to do anymore. I just want to die sometimes. I just need to go somewhere. Somwhere where there isn't any pain, and everyone will accept me.
Anyone else feel this way?
I think you should feel blessed that you don't live in a poor rural village in Africa where you are being slowly killed off by AIDS, Malaria, starvation, and warlords.
08 Dec 2011, 8:54 am
