TheSunAlsoRises wrote:
Transhuman wrote:
Sometimes (very often), after experiencing too much pressure (every day after 1-2 PM), I feel as if my mind is half-shut down. It isn't just a feeling of tiredness or stress. When I walk past crowds when experiencing this, I will almost completely black out and feel like I'm not conscious. Or when I will go near detailed objects. Sometimes, my mind shuts down so much that everything around me mixes completely, that I can't process any information that I receive, to the point that I can't walk by myself. I will half-consciously see things around myself, but nothing will make sense. Any kind of information I will receive simply won't be processed by my brain in order to make me function. It usually takes me 30-40 minutes after the start of this 'attack' to start walking by myself (although everything will still be mixed up) and at least a day for everything to stop being mixed up. Sometimes it takes several days for everything to stop mixing up, and a day to start being able to walk independently again.
The 'attacks' started when I was around 9 on a crowded and noisy birthday party. The 'half-shut down' feeling was there far before that, but it was more like quarter-shut down.
What could this be? My neurologist thought that it might be epilepsy - I went through the testing, and it wasn't detected.
What was your developmental trajectory like ? Growing up, where you a young child who appeared to be in their own world unaware of their surroundings ?
TheSunAlsoRisesYes and no. I often didn't respond to my name. I 'came back' when my parents were already screaming trying to get me to respond. On the other hand, when there was an interesting activity, I couldn't stop focusing on it.
About my development trajectory:
Didn't say any words until I was about 2 1/3, only babbled or used my own words. Was spoon-fed until the age of 9. Couldn't tie my shoes until the age of 11-12. Didn't dress myself completely until the age of ~12-13. On the other hand, I didn't and don't have any intellectual abnormalities apart from a very poor working memory (which I was told after getting tested recently). My working memory subtest score is 6 as far as I remember, with 10 being the average.
I believe that a great number of Autists go 'back' to that 'place' at times, spontaneously. And, the frequency and intensity that occurs when going 'back' to that 'place' may depend upon key developmental markers . Also, a coping mechanism used for sensory issues can be going 'back' to that 'place'. IT can be done automatically or controlled to a degree; it depends on the individual.
Now, i have some other question(s): Do you have any special interest(s) ? IF so, have you been consistently engaged in them ??? Specifically, tangible special interests that allow you to connect with the outer world and not those which only require you to engage your inner world i.e imagination(visual images inside your mind), inner voice, etc ??
12 Feb 2012, 10:58 am
